1 00:00:03,862 --> 00:00:06,724 Jennifer: IF ME AND MY DAUGHTER DON'T CHANGE, 2 00:00:06,724 --> 00:00:08,344 SHE'LL BE BURYING ME 3 00:00:08,344 --> 00:00:10,206 AND SHE'LL BE NEXT. 4 00:00:10,206 --> 00:00:16,689 ♪♪ 5 00:00:16,689 --> 00:00:19,379 OH, GOD. [ GROANING ] 6 00:00:19,379 --> 00:00:22,931 Woman: MY LIFE IS WASTING AWAY, AND I HATE IT. 7 00:00:22,931 --> 00:00:26,206 Woman SOMETHING ALWAYS KNOCKS ME DOWN. 8 00:00:26,206 --> 00:00:34,000 ♪♪ 9 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:36,448 MY LIFE, IT'S LIKE A LIVING DEATH SENTENCE. 10 00:00:36,448 --> 00:00:38,758 OH! OW! [BLEEP] 11 00:00:38,758 --> 00:00:41,310 THIS IS NO LIFE FOR ANYONE. 12 00:00:41,310 --> 00:00:45,000 ♪♪ 13 00:00:45,000 --> 00:00:47,344 Woman: OH, JUST PRAY FOR ME. 14 00:00:47,344 --> 00:00:49,172 OW, MY LEG! 15 00:00:49,172 --> 00:00:50,517 SIT DOWN RIGHT THERE. WAIT. 16 00:00:50,517 --> 00:00:51,758 YOU'RE MAKING ME MAD. 17 00:00:51,758 --> 00:00:53,862 THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE. 18 00:00:53,862 --> 00:00:56,275 ♪♪ 19 00:00:56,275 --> 00:00:57,620 Jennifer: I HAVE NO POWER. 20 00:00:57,620 --> 00:01:00,793 I MOVED US INTO THE CRAPPIEST NEIGHBORHOOD EVER. 21 00:01:00,793 --> 00:01:03,206 Marissa: THE WINDOW IS BROKEN IN HERE. 22 00:01:03,206 --> 00:01:04,793 OH, MY GOD. I'M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT. 23 00:01:04,793 --> 00:01:07,793 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 24 00:01:07,793 --> 00:01:10,758 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 25 00:01:10,758 --> 00:01:14,482 ♪♪ 26 00:01:14,482 --> 00:01:19,034 Jennifer: WE HAVE NO CHOICE WITH HOW THE STORY OF OUR LIFE BEGINS, 27 00:01:19,034 --> 00:01:21,241 BUT WE CAN HAVE A CHOICE IN HOW IT ENDS. 28 00:01:21,241 --> 00:01:28,862 ♪♪ 29 00:01:28,862 --> 00:01:36,517 ♪♪ 30 00:01:36,517 --> 00:01:44,172 ♪♪ 31 00:01:44,172 --> 00:01:45,931 I'M IN CONSTANT MISERY. 32 00:01:45,931 --> 00:01:48,206 ♪♪ 33 00:01:48,206 --> 00:01:49,896 I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG NOW 34 00:01:49,896 --> 00:01:52,758 THAT THE STRAIN OF ALL THAT WEIGHT ON MY BODY 35 00:01:52,758 --> 00:01:55,655 MAKES EVERY PART OF ME ACHE, 36 00:01:55,655 --> 00:01:59,551 AND MY BACK HURTS. 37 00:01:59,551 --> 00:02:02,448 MY FEET HURT. MY HIPS HURT. 38 00:02:02,448 --> 00:02:04,482 ♪♪ 39 00:02:04,482 --> 00:02:07,241 I FEEL LIKE I'M SUFFOCATING UNDER THIS WEIGHT. 40 00:02:07,241 --> 00:02:11,448 ♪♪ 41 00:02:11,448 --> 00:02:14,724 BUT IT'S ESPECIALLY TAKEN A TOLL ON MY LEGS 42 00:02:14,724 --> 00:02:18,896 BECAUSE NOW I HAVE ARTHRITIS IN MY KNEECAPS, 43 00:02:18,896 --> 00:02:25,275 SO I CAN BARELY STAND FOR TWO MINUTES, MAX, 44 00:02:25,275 --> 00:02:28,068 AND IF I PUSH MYSELF BEYOND THAT, 45 00:02:28,068 --> 00:02:30,241 THE PAIN IS JUST UNBEARABLE. 46 00:02:30,241 --> 00:02:32,310 ♪♪ 47 00:02:32,310 --> 00:02:36,896 I FEEL LIKE MY KNEES WILL POP OUT AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. 48 00:02:36,896 --> 00:02:38,793 OH, MY GOD. 49 00:02:38,793 --> 00:02:42,379 AND I'M VERY WORRIED BECAUSE IF IT GETS ANY WORSE, 50 00:02:42,379 --> 00:02:44,413 I WON'T BE ABLE TO GET UP AND DO ANYTHING. 51 00:02:44,413 --> 00:02:46,862 ♪♪ 52 00:02:46,862 --> 00:02:49,241 IT FEELS LIKE I'M CARRYING 53 00:02:49,241 --> 00:02:52,379 AT LEAST FIVE PEOPLE WITH ME AT ALL TIMES, 54 00:02:52,379 --> 00:02:56,482 AND I'M VERY WORRIED ABOUT WHAT THIS WEIGHT IS DOING TO MY BODY. 55 00:02:56,482 --> 00:03:00,310 ♪♪ 56 00:03:00,310 --> 00:03:03,206 I ALREADY CAN'T DO MUCH ON MY OWN, 57 00:03:03,206 --> 00:03:06,413 SO MY DAUGHTER HAS TO HELP DO MOST EVERYTHING. 58 00:03:06,413 --> 00:03:08,586 MARISSA, BABY. 59 00:03:08,586 --> 00:03:10,620 [ DOOR OPENS ] 60 00:03:10,620 --> 00:03:13,137 CAN YOU COME HELP ME, PLEASE? 61 00:03:13,137 --> 00:03:14,517 -IN THE SHOWER? -YEAH. 62 00:03:16,034 --> 00:03:18,586 SHE LIVES HERE WITH ME AND MY BOYFRIEND, 63 00:03:18,586 --> 00:03:22,724 AND SHE DOES EVERYTHING FOR ME, 64 00:03:22,724 --> 00:03:25,379 BUT THE MOST HUMILIATING THING SHE HAS TO HELP ME WITH 65 00:03:25,379 --> 00:03:28,827 IS TAKING A SHOWER. 66 00:03:28,827 --> 00:03:32,379 NO CHILD SHOULD HAVE TO DO STUFF 67 00:03:32,379 --> 00:03:35,551 THAT SHE HAS TO DO 24 HOURS A DAY. 68 00:03:35,551 --> 00:03:38,172 ♪♪ 69 00:03:38,172 --> 00:03:40,655 I NEED MARISSA TO WASH EVERYTHING, 70 00:03:40,655 --> 00:03:42,655 SO, I KNOW WITHOUT HER HELP, 71 00:03:42,655 --> 00:03:44,482 I'D HAVE NO WAY TO EVEN FUNCTION. 72 00:03:44,482 --> 00:03:48,413 ♪♪ 73 00:03:48,413 --> 00:03:52,103 IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING TO ALWAYS HAVE TO HELP MY MOM, 74 00:03:52,103 --> 00:03:53,482 BUT IF I DIDN'T, 75 00:03:53,482 --> 00:03:56,206 I'M WORRIED SHE'D END UP STAYING IN BED ALL DAY, 76 00:03:56,206 --> 00:03:59,206 AND THEN SHE WOULD JUST END UP GETTING WORSE, 77 00:03:59,206 --> 00:04:01,724 SO I DON'T REALLY HAVE A CHOICE 78 00:04:01,724 --> 00:04:04,896 BECAUSE I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN TO HER. 79 00:04:04,896 --> 00:04:06,379 BUT IT'S GETTING HARDER FOR ME 80 00:04:06,379 --> 00:04:08,758 TO TAKE CARE OF HER LIKE SHE NEEDS 81 00:04:08,758 --> 00:04:13,000 BECAUSE I KNOW HER EATING HABITS AFFECT ME. 82 00:04:13,000 --> 00:04:15,000 I KNOW I'VE STARTED GAINING A LOT, 83 00:04:15,000 --> 00:04:18,413 AND THE BIGGER I'VE GOTTEN, THE HARDER IT IS FOR ME TO DO 84 00:04:18,413 --> 00:04:20,517 SOME OF THE THINGS MY MOM NEEDS ME TO DO. 85 00:04:23,172 --> 00:04:24,965 YEAH. 86 00:04:24,965 --> 00:04:28,068 I'VE STARTED TO GET WORRIED THAT IT'LL GET TO A POINT 87 00:04:28,068 --> 00:04:31,344 WHERE I WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP HER LIKE SHE NEEDS. 88 00:04:31,344 --> 00:04:35,517 AND ONE DAY, I'M GONNA END UP BATHING HER IN HER BED, 89 00:04:35,517 --> 00:04:38,000 AND THAT'S NOT SOMEWHERE I WANT TO BE AT. 90 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:40,620 ♪♪ 91 00:04:40,620 --> 00:04:44,655 Marissa: BUT I FEEL LIKE SHE CAN'T BE A MOM FROM THE BED. 92 00:04:44,655 --> 00:04:48,310 SO, I THINK THE LINES ARE DEFINITELY BLURRED. 93 00:04:48,310 --> 00:04:51,310 WE DON'T KNOW WHAT ROLE IS WHAT. 94 00:04:51,310 --> 00:04:53,103 I DON'T KNOW IF I'M THE MOM. 95 00:04:53,103 --> 00:04:54,482 I DON'T KNOW IF I'M THE DAUGHTER. 96 00:04:54,482 --> 00:04:55,862 I DON'T KNOW IF I'M THE CARETAKER. 97 00:04:55,862 --> 00:04:59,000 I DON'T KNOW IF I'M SUPPOSED TO BE A CHILD. 98 00:04:59,000 --> 00:05:00,896 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM MOST OF THE TIME. 99 00:05:00,896 --> 00:05:04,517 ♪♪ 100 00:05:04,517 --> 00:05:07,206 Jennifer: I HATE THAT THIS IS MY LIFE, 101 00:05:07,206 --> 00:05:09,931 AND THAT THIS IS THE LIFE THAT I'M MAKING FOR MY DAUGHTER 102 00:05:09,931 --> 00:05:12,758 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, 103 00:05:12,758 --> 00:05:16,379 AND I'M NOT HAPPY IN THIS BODY AT ALL. 104 00:05:16,379 --> 00:05:19,068 ♪♪ 105 00:05:19,068 --> 00:05:21,724 I DON'T EVEN FEEL HUMAN AT THIS POINT. 106 00:05:21,724 --> 00:05:25,413 [ Voice breaking ] I JUST FEEL LIKE A BLOB, 107 00:05:25,413 --> 00:05:27,965 AND I JUST SEE A DISGUSTING HUMAN BEING 108 00:05:27,965 --> 00:05:30,448 THAT SHOULDN'T BE LIKE THIS. 109 00:05:30,448 --> 00:05:33,724 ♪♪ 110 00:05:33,724 --> 00:05:34,965 -GOT IT? -YEAH. 111 00:05:34,965 --> 00:05:36,344 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE IT 112 00:05:36,344 --> 00:05:39,344 BECAUSE IT'S ONLY GONNA GET WORSE 113 00:05:39,344 --> 00:05:42,551 BECAUSE ALL I LIVE FOR IS EATING. 114 00:05:42,551 --> 00:05:44,965 WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE YOU FOR BREAKFAST, MAMA? 115 00:05:44,965 --> 00:05:46,724 I THINK I WANT 116 00:05:46,724 --> 00:05:49,689 SOME EGGS, SOME BACON, 117 00:05:49,689 --> 00:05:51,413 BISCUITS AND GRAVY, PLEASE. 118 00:05:51,413 --> 00:05:53,172 OKEYDOKEY. THANKS. 119 00:05:53,172 --> 00:05:56,448 ♪♪ 120 00:05:56,448 --> 00:05:59,586 I KNOW, DESPITE ALL THE PAIN AND STRUGGLE OF MY BODY, 121 00:05:59,586 --> 00:06:01,896 IF I GET UP AND START MY DAY, THEN I GET TO EAT. 122 00:06:01,896 --> 00:06:05,000 ♪♪ 123 00:06:05,000 --> 00:06:09,344 I CAN'T HANDLE IT IF I DON'T GET TO EAT WHAT I WANT. 124 00:06:09,344 --> 00:06:11,689 MARISSA DOESN'T ARGUE WITH ME, 125 00:06:11,689 --> 00:06:13,413 AND WHAT DEVASTATES ME IS, 126 00:06:13,413 --> 00:06:16,275 NOW SHE JOINS IN WITH ME AND MY MEALS. 127 00:06:16,275 --> 00:06:19,482 MARISSA, HOW MUCH LONGER YOU THINK? 128 00:06:19,482 --> 00:06:21,620 PROBABLY NOT THAT LONG. -ALL RIGHT. 129 00:06:21,620 --> 00:06:23,068 I'M HUNGRY. 130 00:06:23,068 --> 00:06:26,034 ♪♪ 131 00:06:26,034 --> 00:06:30,827 Marissa: I USED TO BE A LOT BETTER AT HIDING MY FEELINGS ABOUT MY MOM, 132 00:06:30,827 --> 00:06:32,379 BUT IT'S GETTING TO THE POINT 133 00:06:32,379 --> 00:06:35,206 WHERE I CAN'T HIDE MY ANGER 134 00:06:35,206 --> 00:06:39,758 OR HIDE HOW FRUSTRATING DOING EVERYTHING IS TO ME. 135 00:06:39,758 --> 00:06:41,344 I FEEL HOPELESS A LOT. 136 00:06:41,344 --> 00:06:43,068 -THANK YOU. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 137 00:06:43,068 --> 00:06:45,724 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO, 138 00:06:45,724 --> 00:06:48,517 SO I PUSH IT ALL DOWN AND DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO 139 00:06:48,517 --> 00:06:51,172 AND JUST TAKE CARE OF HER, 140 00:06:51,172 --> 00:06:54,517 AND I TAKE ALL THE FRUSTRATION AND JUST EAT. 141 00:06:54,517 --> 00:06:57,517 AND I KNOW THAT IF I LET MYSELF GET ANY WORSE, 142 00:06:57,517 --> 00:07:00,965 IT'S GONNA BE REALLY BAD FOR BOTH OF US. 143 00:07:00,965 --> 00:07:04,448 SO, I'M AT A POINT WHERE I DON'T WANT TO GAIN ANY MORE WEIGHT, 144 00:07:04,448 --> 00:07:06,275 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LOSE IT 145 00:07:06,275 --> 00:07:08,206 BECAUSE I'M GONNA END UP RIGHT WHERE SHE IS 146 00:07:08,206 --> 00:07:09,758 IF I DON'T CHANGE. 147 00:07:11,862 --> 00:07:14,000 OH, MY GOD, MARISSA. IT'S SO GOOD. 148 00:07:16,448 --> 00:07:19,413 Jennifer: THIS ISN'T LIVING. 149 00:07:19,413 --> 00:07:21,344 I DON'T EVEN THINK IT'S SURVIVING. 150 00:07:21,344 --> 00:07:26,310 I FEEL THAT I'M SLOWLY DYING. I'M SLOWLY KILLING MYSELF. 151 00:07:26,310 --> 00:07:30,034 FOOD IS WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY, AND AT THIS POINT, 152 00:07:30,034 --> 00:07:32,172 I DON'T THINK I COULD STOP 153 00:07:32,172 --> 00:07:34,896 AND NEITHER CAN MARISSA. 154 00:07:34,896 --> 00:07:38,344 THAT'S LEADING TO HER GAINING A LOT OF WEIGHT NOW, TOO, 155 00:07:38,344 --> 00:07:40,827 ALL BECAUSE OF ME. 156 00:07:40,827 --> 00:07:46,586 SHE IS TEETERING ON THE VERY BRINK OF BEING WHERE I AM. 157 00:07:46,586 --> 00:07:50,620 [ Voice breaking ] AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S MY FAULT. 158 00:07:50,620 --> 00:07:52,448 [ Normal voice ] ALL I KNOW IS THAT MY WHOLE LIFE, 159 00:07:52,448 --> 00:07:54,413 MY STRUGGLE HAS BEEN WITH FOOD, 160 00:07:54,413 --> 00:07:56,344 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT NOW 161 00:07:56,344 --> 00:07:58,724 WHEN IT'S ALL YOU'VE KNOWN FOR SO LONG. 162 00:07:58,724 --> 00:08:04,793 ♪♪ 163 00:08:04,793 --> 00:08:08,310 GROWING UP, I HAD A PRETTY ROUGH CHILDHOOD. 164 00:08:08,310 --> 00:08:09,931 THE FIRST COUPLE YEARS OF MY LIFE 165 00:08:09,931 --> 00:08:12,931 REVOLVED AROUND THE FACT THAT MY FATHER WAS AN ADDICT, 166 00:08:12,931 --> 00:08:14,931 SO, A LOT OF MY EARLIEST MEMORIES 167 00:08:14,931 --> 00:08:18,793 WERE OF MY DAD LOSING HIS TEMPER AND GOING INTO A RAGE, 168 00:08:18,793 --> 00:08:21,034 BUT BECAUSE OF THAT, MY PARENTS GOT A DIVORCE. 169 00:08:21,034 --> 00:08:24,068 ♪♪ 170 00:08:24,068 --> 00:08:26,275 BUT MY MOM REMARRIED WHEN I WAS FIVE, 171 00:08:26,275 --> 00:08:30,827 AND MY STEPDAD STARTED TO ABUSE ME AND MY SIBLINGS. 172 00:08:30,827 --> 00:08:34,931 WHEN I WAS SEVEN, THAT'S WHEN MY STEPDAD STARTED TO MOLEST ME. 173 00:08:34,931 --> 00:08:38,068 ♪♪ 174 00:08:38,068 --> 00:08:41,689 I THINK MY MOM KNEW THAT I WAS BEING MOLESTED, 175 00:08:41,689 --> 00:08:46,103 AND MY MOM WOULD JUST EXCUSE MY STEPDAD'S BEHAVIOR, 176 00:08:46,103 --> 00:08:49,931 AND JUST NOTHING EVER CHANGED, 177 00:08:49,931 --> 00:08:51,724 SO, NOBODY DID ANYTHING TO SAVE ME, 178 00:08:51,724 --> 00:08:53,655 AND I HAD NOWHERE TO TURN, 179 00:08:53,655 --> 00:08:55,793 SO I TURNED TO FOOD, 180 00:08:55,793 --> 00:08:57,931 AND I JUST STARTED GORGING MYSELF. 181 00:08:57,931 --> 00:08:59,724 IT'S THE ONLY THING IN MY LIFE I COULD TURN TO 182 00:08:59,724 --> 00:09:02,517 THAT MADE ME FEEL SAFE AND HAPPY. 183 00:09:02,517 --> 00:09:04,724 IT WAS SOMETHING THAT I COULD CONTROL, 184 00:09:04,724 --> 00:09:06,413 AND IT NEVER JUDGED ME. 185 00:09:06,413 --> 00:09:08,448 IT NEVER HURT ME. 186 00:09:08,448 --> 00:09:12,172 SO, I STARTED GAINING WEIGHT ABOUT THE AGE OF EIGHT. 187 00:09:12,172 --> 00:09:14,689 BY THE TIME I WAS NINE, I HIT 100 POUNDS, 188 00:09:14,689 --> 00:09:17,344 AND MY WEIGHT GAIN NEVER SLOWED FROM THAT POINT. 189 00:09:17,344 --> 00:09:19,896 I WAS JUST EATING NONSTOP. 190 00:09:19,896 --> 00:09:22,310 IT GOT TO THE POINT WHERE MY MOM AND MY STEPDAD, 191 00:09:22,310 --> 00:09:25,000 THEY WOULD LOCK UP THE CABINETS AND THE FRIDGE 192 00:09:25,000 --> 00:09:27,310 TO TRY AND STOP ME FROM EATING AS MUCH, 193 00:09:27,310 --> 00:09:28,965 BUT IT DIDN'T WORK. 194 00:09:28,965 --> 00:09:31,931 AND I WOULD FIND WAYS TO SNEAK SNACKS, 195 00:09:31,931 --> 00:09:36,103 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 13, I WEIGHED 150 POUNDS. 196 00:09:36,103 --> 00:09:39,551 AT THAT POINT, MY STEPFATHER WOULD SET ME ON A SCALE 197 00:09:39,551 --> 00:09:42,827 NAKED, IN FRONT OF A MIRROR AND JUST DEGRADE ME LIKE, 198 00:09:42,827 --> 00:09:44,724 "WHY DO YOU WANT TO LOOK LIKE THIS? 199 00:09:44,724 --> 00:09:46,655 WHY CAN'T YOU LOSE WEIGHT?" 200 00:09:46,655 --> 00:09:51,310 AND I JUST FELT USELESS AND... 201 00:09:51,310 --> 00:09:54,206 JUST INADEQUATE. 202 00:09:54,206 --> 00:09:57,068 AROUND THEN IS WHEN MY MOM AND HIM GOT A DIVORCE. 203 00:09:57,068 --> 00:09:59,758 ♪♪ 204 00:09:59,758 --> 00:10:03,758 AND SHORTLY AFTER THAT, I GOT PREGNANT WITH MARISSA. 205 00:10:03,758 --> 00:10:07,137 WHEN I TURNED 16, ME AND MY BOYFRIEND GOT MARRIED, 206 00:10:07,137 --> 00:10:12,068 BUT IT WAS DURING MY PREGNANCY THAT MY WEIGHT SKYROCKETED, 207 00:10:12,068 --> 00:10:15,827 AND BY THE TIME I HAD MARISSA, I WAS ALMOST 300 POUNDS, 208 00:10:15,827 --> 00:10:19,275 AND AS CRAZY AS IT SOUNDS, I WAS HAPPY THEN... 209 00:10:19,275 --> 00:10:22,241 [Voice breaking] THAT I COULD BE A WAY BETTER MOM THAN MY MOM. 210 00:10:22,241 --> 00:10:25,034 I JUST WANTED TO BE BETTER. 211 00:10:25,034 --> 00:10:27,413 [Normal voice] BUT HAVING MARISSA DIDN'T SLOW MY WEIGHT GAIN 212 00:10:27,413 --> 00:10:30,724 BECAUSE I DECIDED THAT SINCE EVERYBODY STARVED ME GROWING UP, 213 00:10:30,724 --> 00:10:33,586 I COULD EAT ABSOLUTELY WHAT I WANTED, 214 00:10:33,586 --> 00:10:37,137 AND I WENT GUNG HO FOR IT ALL. 215 00:10:37,137 --> 00:10:40,689 AND I GOT SO BIG, IT GOT TOO DIFFICULT TO STAY IN SCHOOL. 216 00:10:40,689 --> 00:10:43,724 SO, I DROPPED OUT, AND BY THE TIME I WAS 18, 217 00:10:43,724 --> 00:10:46,517 I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND CHILD, PEYTON, 218 00:10:46,517 --> 00:10:48,655 AND I JUST KEPT GAINING, 219 00:10:48,655 --> 00:10:50,896 AND BY THE TIME HE WAS BORN, WHEN I WAS 19, 220 00:10:50,896 --> 00:10:53,655 I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS, 221 00:10:53,655 --> 00:10:55,896 BUT I WAS STILL HAPPY BECAUSE I HAD MY OWN FAMILY. 222 00:10:55,896 --> 00:10:58,482 ♪♪ 223 00:10:58,482 --> 00:11:01,379 AND WHEN I WAS 20, THINGS STARTED TO GET HARD 224 00:11:01,379 --> 00:11:03,344 BETWEEN ME AND MY HUSBAND. 225 00:11:03,344 --> 00:11:05,517 THE RELATIONSHIP TURNED ABUSIVE, 226 00:11:05,517 --> 00:11:09,172 AND I DIDN'T WANT THAT TYPE OF ENVIRONMENT FOR MY KIDS. 227 00:11:09,172 --> 00:11:12,896 DURING THAT TIME WHEN I WAS 22, I MET SOMEONE ELSE, 228 00:11:12,896 --> 00:11:15,275 AND WE STARTED SEEING EACH OTHER, 229 00:11:15,275 --> 00:11:19,413 AND I GOT PREGNANT BY HIM, 230 00:11:19,413 --> 00:11:21,655 BUT EVEN THOUGH MY MARRIAGE WAS FALLING APART, 231 00:11:21,655 --> 00:11:23,517 I WAS STILL MARRIED TO MY HUSBAND. 232 00:11:23,517 --> 00:11:27,379 SO, I WASN'T SURE HOW IT WAS GONNA GO DOWN 233 00:11:27,379 --> 00:11:30,448 WHEN I SAID THAT I HAD A CHILD THAT WASN'T HIS, 234 00:11:30,448 --> 00:11:32,551 SO I HID MY PREGNANCY FROM HIM. 235 00:11:32,551 --> 00:11:34,965 I WOULD WEAR BAGGY CLOTHES, 236 00:11:34,965 --> 00:11:37,827 AND THEN I GAVE HIM UP FOR ADOPTION WHEN HE WAS BORN. 237 00:11:37,827 --> 00:11:40,034 I NEVER WANTED TO GIVE UP MY SON. 238 00:11:40,034 --> 00:11:43,517 I THOUGHT I DID THE BEST THING FOR HIM, 239 00:11:43,517 --> 00:11:44,896 BUT IT KILLED ME. 240 00:11:44,896 --> 00:11:48,103 ♪♪ 241 00:11:48,103 --> 00:11:52,068 I WENT INTO SUCH DEPRESSION, I GAINED ABOUT 100 POUNDS. 242 00:11:52,068 --> 00:11:56,137 I WAS 23 THEN, AND I WAS GETTING CLOSE TO 500, 243 00:11:56,137 --> 00:11:58,827 AND OVER THE NEXT YEAR, I WAS SO DEPRESSED, 244 00:11:58,827 --> 00:12:02,482 AND I JUST ATE NONSTOP, SO I HIT 600 POUNDS. 245 00:12:02,482 --> 00:12:05,103 ♪♪ 246 00:12:05,103 --> 00:12:08,206 BUT THINGS KEPT GETTING WORSE IN MY MARRIAGE, 247 00:12:08,206 --> 00:12:10,655 AND I KNOW IT WAS NOT ONLY AFFECTING ME, 248 00:12:10,655 --> 00:12:13,689 BUT MARISSA WAS GETTING OLDER AND WITNESSING IT. 249 00:12:13,689 --> 00:12:15,379 IT WAS STARTING TO TRAUMATIZE HER 250 00:12:15,379 --> 00:12:18,724 LIKE IT DID WHEN I WITNESSED IT AS A CHILD, 251 00:12:18,724 --> 00:12:22,103 AND I DIDN'T WANT THAT FOR HER, SO I FINALLY LEFT, 252 00:12:22,103 --> 00:12:25,793 BUT I REALLY THINK AT THAT POINT, IT WAS TOO LATE. 253 00:12:25,793 --> 00:12:28,586 HE NEVER ABUSED ME, BUT HE WOULD LITERALLY MAKE ME 254 00:12:28,586 --> 00:12:31,103 SIT ON THE COUCH AND WATCH HIM BEAT ON MY MOM. 255 00:12:31,103 --> 00:12:33,862 IT WAS HARD. WHEN THAT WOULD HAPPEN, 256 00:12:33,862 --> 00:12:36,068 AND THE FIRST THING I WOULD WANT TO DO WAS EAT. 257 00:12:36,068 --> 00:12:41,448 I NEEDED SWEETS OR SOMETHING TO CALM ME DOWN. 258 00:12:41,448 --> 00:12:43,896 Jennifer: THINGS WERE OKAY FOR THE NEXT FIVE YEARS OR SO. 259 00:12:43,896 --> 00:12:46,172 WHEN I WAS GOING ON 30, I MET DAWAYNE, 260 00:12:46,172 --> 00:12:48,241 WHO IS MY BOYFRIEND NOW. 261 00:12:48,241 --> 00:12:50,413 JEN WAS HEAVY WHEN I FIRST MET HER, 262 00:12:50,413 --> 00:12:52,689 AND IT DIDN'T REALLY MATTER TO ME 263 00:12:52,689 --> 00:12:54,517 BECAUSE I JUST LOVED HER SMILE 264 00:12:54,517 --> 00:12:57,931 AND JUST EVERYTHING ABOUT HER. 265 00:12:57,931 --> 00:12:59,827 Jennifer: BUT IN THE BEGINNING OF OUR RELATIONSHIP, 266 00:12:59,827 --> 00:13:02,034 HE WASN'T THE BEST INFLUENCE ON ME 267 00:13:02,034 --> 00:13:03,620 BECAUSE HE HAD A LOT OF DEMONS, 268 00:13:03,620 --> 00:13:06,103 AND ONE OF THOSE WAS DRUG ADDICTION, 269 00:13:06,103 --> 00:13:09,965 SO I STARTED TO JOIN IN, AND I GOT ADDICTED. 270 00:13:09,965 --> 00:13:14,241 FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS, I JUST WASN'T WITH IT. 271 00:13:14,241 --> 00:13:17,379 I KNOW I WASN'T THE BEST MOM TO MY KIDS AT THE TIME. 272 00:13:17,379 --> 00:13:20,965 I LOST MY HOME AND MY CAR, AND I WAS ESSENTIALLY HOMELESS, 273 00:13:20,965 --> 00:13:22,551 SO I LOST MY KIDS. 274 00:13:22,551 --> 00:13:26,172 THEY WERE TAKEN AWAY TO GO LIVE WITH THEIR GRANDPARENTS. 275 00:13:26,172 --> 00:13:28,586 SO, ME AND DAWAYNE WERE ALONE AT THIS TIME... 276 00:13:30,931 --> 00:13:32,206 ...BUT I KNOW IT WAS HARD ON MY KIDS 277 00:13:32,206 --> 00:13:34,344 TO BE AWAY FROM THEIR MOM, 278 00:13:34,344 --> 00:13:36,517 ESPECIALLY WHEN I HEARD MARISSA'S GRANDPARENTS 279 00:13:36,517 --> 00:13:40,310 TRIED TO DO THINGS TO CONTROL HER WEIGHT LIKE THEY DID TO ME. 280 00:13:40,310 --> 00:13:41,862 IT WAS HARD HAVING SO MANY RESTRICTIONS 281 00:13:41,862 --> 00:13:43,103 AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE. 282 00:13:43,103 --> 00:13:44,620 IT MADE ME FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT MYSELF 283 00:13:44,620 --> 00:13:47,517 THAT SOMEBODY HAD TO LOCK CABINETS 284 00:13:47,517 --> 00:13:51,965 OR LOCK THE REFRIGERATOR JUST SO I WOULDN'T EAT. 285 00:13:51,965 --> 00:13:54,448 BUT IT NEVER STOPPED ME FROM GAINING. 286 00:13:54,448 --> 00:13:56,724 I COULD ALWAYS FIND A WAY TO GET FOOD. 287 00:13:56,724 --> 00:14:01,413 I WAS AROUND 14 AT THE TIME, AND I WAS GOING ON 200 POUNDS 288 00:14:01,413 --> 00:14:05,620 BECAUSE I WAS JUST EATING TO DEAL WITH ALL THE PAIN MY LIFE, 289 00:14:05,620 --> 00:14:07,000 AND NOW I WAS WITHOUT MY MOM 290 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:09,241 WHEN I FELT LIKE I NEEDED HER THE MOST. 291 00:14:09,241 --> 00:14:11,482 ♪♪ 292 00:14:11,482 --> 00:14:15,137 THAT'S WHEN I EXPERIENCED THE WORST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME. 293 00:14:15,137 --> 00:14:18,931 I MET THIS 19-YEAR-OLD BOY, AND HE INVITED ME TO HIS HOUSE, 294 00:14:18,931 --> 00:14:20,758 AND WHEN I WENT OVER, 295 00:14:20,758 --> 00:14:23,241 HE RAPED ME. 296 00:14:23,241 --> 00:14:24,827 I BLAME MYSELF A LOT FOR WHAT HAPPENED 297 00:14:24,827 --> 00:14:26,482 'CAUSE I WAS BIGGER THAN HIM, 298 00:14:26,482 --> 00:14:30,827 SO I FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE DONE MORE TO STOP IT. 299 00:14:30,827 --> 00:14:33,034 BUT AFTER THAT, I STARTED TO FEEL REALLY DEPRESSED 300 00:14:33,034 --> 00:14:36,034 AND REALLY BAD ABOUT MYSELF, AND I TURNED TO FOOD. 301 00:14:36,034 --> 00:14:38,413 [ Voice breaking ] IT WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD COPE, I GUESS. 302 00:14:38,413 --> 00:14:41,551 ♪♪ 303 00:14:41,551 --> 00:14:43,137 BY THE TIME I WAS 33, 304 00:14:43,137 --> 00:14:45,827 I WAS ALMOST BEDRIDDEN BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, 305 00:14:45,827 --> 00:14:47,344 AND SINCE HE WAS CLEANED UP, 306 00:14:47,344 --> 00:14:49,896 DAWAYNE HAD GOTTEN A JOB TO PROVIDE FOR US, 307 00:14:49,896 --> 00:14:54,103 SO HE COULDN'T STAY HOME TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 308 00:14:54,103 --> 00:14:57,689 Marissa: WHEN I TURNED 18, I HAD GOTTEN UP TO 300 POUNDS, 309 00:14:57,689 --> 00:15:01,896 BUT MY MOM WAS DOUBLE MY SIZE AND NEEDED SOMEONE TO HELP HER, 310 00:15:01,896 --> 00:15:04,206 SO I MOVED IN WITH HER AND DAWAYNE 311 00:15:04,206 --> 00:15:07,275 BECAUSE I COULDN'T JUST LET HER BECOME BEDRIDDEN, 312 00:15:07,275 --> 00:15:09,758 AND THERE WAS NO ONE ELSE TO DO IT, 313 00:15:09,758 --> 00:15:11,586 BUT IT'S BEEN HARD. 314 00:15:11,586 --> 00:15:16,655 I'M FRUSTRATED THAT MY MOM IS STILL BIG AFTER ALL THIS TIME. 315 00:15:16,655 --> 00:15:18,896 I'M FRUSTRATED THAT NOBODY HELPS ME. 316 00:15:18,896 --> 00:15:23,482 IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME THAT I'VE BEEN DOING THIS BY MYSELF, 317 00:15:23,482 --> 00:15:27,241 AND I'M FRUSTRATED THAT I FEEL LIKE I'M ALMOST 500 POUNDS NOW 318 00:15:27,241 --> 00:15:28,827 AND IT'S HER FAULT. 319 00:15:28,827 --> 00:15:32,137 I'M STARTING TO GET CLOSE TO ENDING UP LIKE HER, 320 00:15:32,137 --> 00:15:34,413 AND IT SEEMS LIKE THINGS ARE ONLY GETTING WORSE. 321 00:15:34,413 --> 00:15:40,241 ♪♪ 322 00:15:40,241 --> 00:15:44,068 Jennifer: I HATE THAT THIS IS THE LIFE I MADE FOR ALL OF US, 323 00:15:44,068 --> 00:15:47,931 AND THAT MY DAUGHTER'S WHOLE WORLD IS JUST ME AND DAWAYNE 324 00:15:47,931 --> 00:15:51,482 BECAUSE SHE'S HERE WITH ME ALL DAY LONG, 325 00:15:51,482 --> 00:15:55,034 AND SHE CAN'T GO OUT AND HAVE A LIFE. 326 00:15:55,034 --> 00:15:59,172 MY DAUGHTER SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 327 00:15:59,172 --> 00:16:02,758 I SHOULD BE THE ONE TAKING CARE OF HER. 328 00:16:02,758 --> 00:16:06,172 SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO HAVE A LIFE RIGHT NOW. 329 00:16:06,172 --> 00:16:08,931 SHE'S 26, AND SHE NEEDS TO MEET MR. RIGHT 330 00:16:08,931 --> 00:16:10,965 AND HAVE HER KID. 331 00:16:10,965 --> 00:16:13,310 I HINDER THAT. 332 00:16:13,310 --> 00:16:16,275 CHICKEN WILL BE OUT IN ABOUT 5, 10 MINUTES, OKAY? 333 00:16:16,275 --> 00:16:18,068 Jennifer: OKAY. 334 00:16:18,068 --> 00:16:21,206 Marissa: SOMETIMES, DAWAYNE WILL COOK WHEN HE GETS HOME. 335 00:16:21,206 --> 00:16:24,965 IT'S RARE, BUT WHEN IT HAPPENS, THAT'S ONE OF THE RARE TIMES 336 00:16:24,965 --> 00:16:28,103 I GET TO TAKE A BREAK AND JUST SIT WITH MY MOM, 337 00:16:28,103 --> 00:16:30,379 AND I'M THANKFUL FOR THE TIME I'VE HAD WITH MY MOM, 338 00:16:30,379 --> 00:16:32,413 BUT IT'S NOT NORMAL MOTHER-DAUGHTER TIME, 339 00:16:32,413 --> 00:16:35,689 AND LIVING HERE, DAWAYNE HAS BECOME MORE OF A FATHER TO ME 340 00:16:35,689 --> 00:16:38,275 THAN ANYONE ELSE HAS IN MY LIFE, 341 00:16:38,275 --> 00:16:40,931 BUT THIS IS STILL SO HARD 342 00:16:40,931 --> 00:16:44,862 BECAUSE I WORRY ABOUT MY MOM DYING AT ANY POINT RIGHT NOW. 343 00:16:44,862 --> 00:16:47,034 I ONLY SEE HER GETTING WORSE AND WORSE, 344 00:16:47,034 --> 00:16:50,241 AND I PROBABLY WON'T BE TOO FAR BEHIND HER, 345 00:16:50,241 --> 00:16:53,551 AND I KNOW SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE FOR BOTH OF US 346 00:16:53,551 --> 00:16:57,862 BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE FOR HER AND FOR ME. 347 00:16:57,862 --> 00:17:00,000 I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD GO START PLATES. 348 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:03,172 I WONDER IF DAD HEATED UP YOUR ROLLS. 349 00:17:03,172 --> 00:17:05,206 DO YOU WANT THEM HEATED UP? 350 00:17:05,206 --> 00:17:06,517 SURE. 351 00:17:06,517 --> 00:17:15,413 ♪♪ 352 00:17:15,413 --> 00:17:17,551 I WANT A THIGH, PLEASE. 353 00:17:17,551 --> 00:17:19,034 YOU'VE GOT A THIGH 354 00:17:19,034 --> 00:17:21,206 AND A PIECE OF BREAST. 355 00:17:21,206 --> 00:17:26,000 Jennifer: I THINK IF ME AND MY DAUGHTER DON'T CHANGE, 356 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:27,586 SHE'LL BE BURYING ME, 357 00:17:27,586 --> 00:17:31,827 AND MY BOYFRIEND WILL BE BURYING HER NEXT. 358 00:17:31,827 --> 00:17:33,655 MARISSA, CAN I HAVE MORE BUTTER, PLEASE. 359 00:17:33,655 --> 00:17:35,103 Marissa: BUTTER? MM-HMM. 360 00:17:35,103 --> 00:17:36,724 LIKE, GARLIC BUTTER OR JUST REGULAR BUTTER? 361 00:17:36,724 --> 00:17:39,000 OH. FOR MY POTATO. 362 00:17:41,172 --> 00:17:43,655 LIKE, I WISH IT WAS SO EASY TO JUST, 363 00:17:43,655 --> 00:17:45,620 "OKAY, WELL, LET'S JUST CHANGE," 364 00:17:45,620 --> 00:17:49,482 AND IT'S NOT. IT'S NOT EASY LIKE THAT. 365 00:17:49,482 --> 00:17:55,620 ♪♪ 366 00:17:55,620 --> 00:17:57,896 WANT A NAPKIN, DAD? 367 00:17:57,896 --> 00:18:03,448 Dawayne: I SIT UP THERE AND I WATCH JEN AND MARISSA 368 00:18:03,448 --> 00:18:06,344 EAT SOME OF THESE THINGS THAT THEY DO, 369 00:18:06,344 --> 00:18:08,103 AND I KNOW IT'S KILLING THEM. 370 00:18:08,103 --> 00:18:10,827 ♪♪ 371 00:18:10,827 --> 00:18:14,448 BUT WHEN YOU TELL HER THAT SHE CAN'T HAVE SOMETHING, 372 00:18:14,448 --> 00:18:17,551 THEN SHE MAKES IT A LIVING HELL. 373 00:18:17,551 --> 00:18:19,862 IT'S LIKE A BABY SOMETIMES THROWING A TANTRUM. 374 00:18:19,862 --> 00:18:23,655 IN ORDER TO SHUT THEM UP, YOU JUST GIVE THEM WHAT THEY WANT. 375 00:18:23,655 --> 00:18:26,103 IF WE WERE TO LOSE JEN, 376 00:18:26,103 --> 00:18:29,172 [SIGHS] MY WHOLE WORLD WOULD BE GONE. 377 00:18:29,172 --> 00:18:32,275 ♪♪ 378 00:18:32,275 --> 00:18:33,827 Marissa: I'M VERY TIRED OF THIS LIFE. 379 00:18:33,827 --> 00:18:36,931 I DON'T WANT TO LIVE THIS LIFE ANYMORE. 380 00:18:36,931 --> 00:18:38,965 Jennifer: WE BOTH DESPERATELY NEED HELP... 381 00:18:41,241 --> 00:18:44,862 ...'CAUSE WE BOTH CAN'T LAST MUCH LONGER THAN THIS. 382 00:18:44,862 --> 00:18:47,793 SO, I HAVE TO FIND A WAY FOR US TO CHANGE, 383 00:18:47,793 --> 00:18:49,310 AND IF WE DON'T DO SOMETHING SOON, 384 00:18:49,310 --> 00:18:50,931 I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE TOO LATE. 385 00:18:50,931 --> 00:18:53,689 ♪♪ 386 00:18:56,000 --> 00:19:04,965 ♪♪ 387 00:19:04,965 --> 00:19:13,862 ♪♪ 388 00:19:13,862 --> 00:19:22,793 ♪♪ 389 00:19:22,793 --> 00:19:27,517 Jennifer: MARISSA AND ME ARE FLYING TO HOUSTON TO SEE DR. NOW TODAY. 390 00:19:27,517 --> 00:19:29,344 I CALLED DR. NOWZARADAN LAST WEEK 391 00:19:29,344 --> 00:19:32,724 TO SET UP AN APPOINTMENT FOR TOMORROW. 392 00:19:32,724 --> 00:19:36,275 I WANT US TO TRY AND GET HELP TOGETHER, 393 00:19:36,275 --> 00:19:39,827 BUT I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW ABOUT HOW THIS IS GONNA GO. 394 00:19:39,827 --> 00:19:42,517 IT'S A BIG TRIP. LIKE, WE HAVE TO FLY. 395 00:19:42,517 --> 00:19:46,931 I'VE NEVER FLOWN BEFORE. I'M SO NERVOUS. 396 00:19:46,931 --> 00:19:48,034 -HELLO. -HI. 397 00:19:48,034 --> 00:19:49,551 -HI, NICHOLAS. -HOW'S IT GOING? 398 00:19:49,551 --> 00:19:51,931 -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? -GOOD. 399 00:19:51,931 --> 00:19:53,655 ALL RIGHT. WHAT ALL WE DO GOT TO DO? 400 00:19:53,655 --> 00:19:55,517 WE GOT TO TAKE BAGS DOWN. 401 00:19:55,517 --> 00:19:58,172 TELL ME WHAT I GOT TO DO TO HELP YOU GUYS OUT. 402 00:19:58,172 --> 00:20:00,827 OUR FRIEND NICK IS TAKING US TO THE AIRPORT, 403 00:20:00,827 --> 00:20:03,137 AND I'M SO GRATEFUL FOR HIM. 404 00:20:05,137 --> 00:20:07,310 THANK YOU, NICK. -YEAH, NO PROBLEM. 405 00:20:07,310 --> 00:20:08,655 ALL RIGHT. I THINK WE'RE READY. 406 00:20:08,655 --> 00:20:11,379 YOU READY? YEAH. 407 00:20:11,379 --> 00:20:13,793 LET'S SEE HOW THIS FEELS. 408 00:20:13,793 --> 00:20:16,655 Marissa: I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE A HARD TRIP FOR MY MOM 409 00:20:16,655 --> 00:20:21,034 BECAUSE MY MOM CAN'T EVEN HANDLE GOING SMALL DISTANCES, 410 00:20:21,034 --> 00:20:22,931 BUT WE HAVE NO OTHER OPTION. 411 00:20:22,931 --> 00:20:27,275 ♪♪ 412 00:20:27,275 --> 00:20:30,137 Marissa: YOU GOT IT. 413 00:20:30,137 --> 00:20:33,241 Jennifer: LEAVING THE HOUSE AND FLYING IN AN AIRPLANE 414 00:20:33,241 --> 00:20:35,793 AND, LIKE, IF I THINK ABOUT IT TOO LONG, 415 00:20:35,793 --> 00:20:38,137 I'M SCARED, 416 00:20:38,137 --> 00:20:41,931 BUT I'M AT LEAST GLAD WE'RE TRYING TO DO THIS TOGETHER. 417 00:20:41,931 --> 00:20:43,206 SLOWLY. 418 00:20:43,206 --> 00:20:45,344 I JUST WANT TO GO DOWN FAST. 419 00:20:45,344 --> 00:20:50,068 ♪♪ 420 00:20:50,068 --> 00:20:51,758 COUPLE MORE. YOU GOT IT. 421 00:20:51,758 --> 00:20:54,448 OKAY. 422 00:20:56,827 --> 00:20:58,551 HELP ME WITH THESE STAIRS, THEN. 423 00:20:58,551 --> 00:21:02,172 ♪♪ 424 00:21:02,172 --> 00:21:03,379 GO DOWN ONE MORE. 425 00:21:03,379 --> 00:21:04,793 OKAY. 426 00:21:04,793 --> 00:21:06,689 ALL RIGHT. 427 00:21:06,689 --> 00:21:08,137 I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN ALREADY, 428 00:21:08,137 --> 00:21:10,172 AND I'M HOPING IT DOESN'T GET ANY WORSE. 429 00:21:10,172 --> 00:21:13,413 ♪♪ 430 00:21:13,413 --> 00:21:15,724 GOT IT? YOU GOT IT. 431 00:21:15,724 --> 00:21:16,965 THANK YOU. 432 00:21:16,965 --> 00:21:25,241 ♪♪ 433 00:21:25,241 --> 00:21:28,517 I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING IN PUBLIC, 434 00:21:28,517 --> 00:21:30,827 AND THAT'S MAKING ME EVEN MORE NERVOUS. 435 00:21:30,827 --> 00:21:36,724 ♪♪ 436 00:21:36,724 --> 00:21:38,172 Marissa: I'M WORRIED ABOUT WHETHER MY MOM 437 00:21:38,172 --> 00:21:42,206 IS GONNA BE ABLE TO MAKE IT ALL THE WAY THERE, 438 00:21:42,206 --> 00:21:44,689 AND THE ONLY REASON I'M WILLING TO TRY THIS 439 00:21:44,689 --> 00:21:47,241 IS THAT I KNOW MY MOM NEEDS HELP. 440 00:21:47,241 --> 00:21:49,206 IT'S JUST NOT GONNA BE EASY. 441 00:21:49,206 --> 00:21:55,379 ♪♪ 442 00:21:55,379 --> 00:21:56,586 RIGHT HERE I THINK. 443 00:22:02,379 --> 00:22:03,862 HOLD THAT, PLEASE. 444 00:22:09,896 --> 00:22:11,000 Both: YEAH. 445 00:22:11,000 --> 00:22:13,896 -THANK YOU. -OKAY. 446 00:22:13,896 --> 00:22:15,793 OH. 447 00:22:15,793 --> 00:22:17,551 Jennifer: I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS. 448 00:22:19,620 --> 00:22:21,275 WILL THE PLANE LIFT WITH ME ON IT? 449 00:22:21,275 --> 00:22:22,344 [ LAUGHS ] 450 00:22:22,344 --> 00:22:23,448 SHE'S AFRAID THE PLANE... -DON'T LAUGH. 451 00:22:23,448 --> 00:22:24,620 ...WON'T TAKE OFF THE GROUND... 452 00:22:24,620 --> 00:22:25,896 -I'M SERIOUS. ...'CAUSE SHE'S FAT. 453 00:22:25,896 --> 00:22:28,310 I CRIED ABOUT IT LAST NIGHT. 454 00:22:28,310 --> 00:22:30,172 IT'S GONNA TAKE OFF, MOM. 455 00:22:30,172 --> 00:22:31,724 I DON'T KNOW IF IT CAN TAKE OFF 'CAUSE I'M SO BIG. 456 00:22:31,724 --> 00:22:33,827 IT CAN HOLD A LOT. 457 00:22:33,827 --> 00:22:37,620 I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M DOING THIS, 458 00:22:37,620 --> 00:22:39,586 AND PART OF ME JUST WANTS TO GO BACK HOME. 459 00:22:39,586 --> 00:22:46,517 ♪♪ 460 00:22:46,517 --> 00:22:49,137 WHERE AM I GOING? THIS WAY? 461 00:22:49,137 --> 00:22:51,551 I JUST NEED TO GET ON AND SIT DOWN. 462 00:22:51,551 --> 00:23:00,413 ♪♪ 463 00:23:00,413 --> 00:23:04,241 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO GET THREE SEATS. 464 00:23:04,241 --> 00:23:06,275 IT'S JUST EMBARRASSING. 465 00:23:06,275 --> 00:23:08,793 THIS IS GONNA BE FREAKING UNCOMFORTABLE. 466 00:23:08,793 --> 00:23:13,034 ♪♪ 467 00:23:13,034 --> 00:23:17,310 THIS IS HUMILIATING. 468 00:23:17,310 --> 00:23:19,344 I HOPE THIS TRIP GOES FAST. 469 00:23:19,344 --> 00:23:22,931 ♪♪ 470 00:23:22,931 --> 00:23:25,620 IT'S A FOUR-HOUR FLIGHT, 471 00:23:25,620 --> 00:23:28,206 SO I BROUGHT SOME FOOD. 472 00:23:28,206 --> 00:23:32,206 I JUST NEEDED SOMETHING TO HELP CALM ME DOWN, 473 00:23:32,206 --> 00:23:34,413 AND FOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT REALLY DOES. 474 00:23:34,413 --> 00:23:41,655 ♪♪ 475 00:23:41,655 --> 00:23:48,931 ♪♪ 476 00:23:48,931 --> 00:23:51,068 THANK GOD WE'RE HERE. 477 00:23:55,344 --> 00:23:57,586 GOT IT. 478 00:23:57,586 --> 00:23:58,827 GOT IT. 479 00:23:58,827 --> 00:24:00,379 GOOD JOB. YOU GOT IT. 480 00:24:00,379 --> 00:24:01,965 [ SIGHS ] 481 00:24:01,965 --> 00:24:05,482 ♪♪ 482 00:24:05,482 --> 00:24:07,068 THANK YOU. 483 00:24:07,068 --> 00:24:11,655 ♪♪ 484 00:24:11,655 --> 00:24:16,379 Marissa: I KNOW THIS HAS BEEN REALLY SCARY FOR MY MOM, 485 00:24:16,379 --> 00:24:20,931 SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF HER FOR MAKING THIS TRIP. 486 00:24:20,931 --> 00:24:24,482 WE JUST HAVE A LITTLE WAYS TO GO BEFORE SHE CAN REST, 487 00:24:24,482 --> 00:24:26,965 AND I KNOW SHE'S LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING TO THE HOTEL, 488 00:24:26,965 --> 00:24:28,379 AND SO AM I. 489 00:24:28,379 --> 00:24:32,689 ♪♪ 490 00:24:32,689 --> 00:24:34,862 Jennifer: THIS HAS BEEN SO HARD, BUT I MADE IT, 491 00:24:34,862 --> 00:24:37,862 AND OUR APPOINTMENT IS TOMORROW, 492 00:24:37,862 --> 00:24:39,896 SO I JUST HOPE IT ALL GOES WELL TOMORROW, 493 00:24:39,896 --> 00:24:42,172 AND IT'S THE START OF A NEW LIFE WE BOTH NEED. 494 00:24:42,172 --> 00:24:48,275 ♪♪ 495 00:24:48,275 --> 00:24:54,379 ♪♪ 496 00:24:54,379 --> 00:24:59,172 MARISSA AND ME ARE HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW, AND I'M REALLY NERVOUS, 497 00:24:59,172 --> 00:25:02,931 AND I'M MORE SCARED TODAY THAN I WAS TRAVELING HERE YESTERDAY 498 00:25:02,931 --> 00:25:04,344 BECAUSE WE'RE ABOUT TO FIND OUT 499 00:25:04,344 --> 00:25:07,965 IF WE GET THE HELP WE NEED TO SAVE OUR LIVES OR NOT, 500 00:25:07,965 --> 00:25:12,000 SO THIS IS ALL JUST REALLY SCARY. 501 00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:14,275 I CAN'T BELIEVE I LET MYSELF GET TO THIS POINT. 502 00:25:14,275 --> 00:25:17,379 ♪♪ 503 00:25:17,379 --> 00:25:19,482 I JUST HOPE AND PRAY THAT IT'S NOT TOO LATE 504 00:25:19,482 --> 00:25:22,793 FOR DR. NOW TO HELP ME. 505 00:25:22,793 --> 00:25:25,793 JENNIFER AND MARISSA. 506 00:25:25,793 --> 00:25:29,344 I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING ON THE SCALE, 507 00:25:29,344 --> 00:25:32,655 BUT I KNOW I NEED TO GET THE HELP I NEED, 508 00:25:32,655 --> 00:25:35,137 SO I WOULD HAVE TO DO THIS. 509 00:25:35,137 --> 00:25:40,275 ♪♪ 510 00:25:40,275 --> 00:25:45,448 ♪♪ 511 00:25:45,448 --> 00:25:47,206 IT'S HIGHER THAN I WAS HOPING... 512 00:25:49,310 --> 00:25:54,482 ...BUT AT THE SAME TIME, IT'S NOT A HUGE SHOCK. 513 00:25:54,482 --> 00:25:56,620 [ Voice breaking ] I'M DEFINITELY NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT. 514 00:25:58,896 --> 00:26:01,379 Marissa: I HOPE THIS GOES WELL 515 00:26:01,379 --> 00:26:03,379 BECAUSE WE BOTH NEED HELP SO BAD. 516 00:26:03,379 --> 00:26:10,413 ♪♪ 517 00:26:10,413 --> 00:26:12,620 THAT'S A LITTLE BIT OF A SHOCK. 518 00:26:12,620 --> 00:26:16,034 I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED IN WHERE MY WEIGHT IS AT. 519 00:26:16,034 --> 00:26:17,689 YOU GUYS CAN GO AHEAD AND GO TO ROOM 5. 520 00:26:17,689 --> 00:26:21,586 -ROOM 5? -MM-HMM. 521 00:26:21,586 --> 00:26:25,068 BUT MY MOM'S IS GETTING TO A BREAKING POINT, 522 00:26:25,068 --> 00:26:28,137 AND SHE HAS TO GET THAT DOWN 523 00:26:28,137 --> 00:26:30,206 BECAUSE IT'S GETTING SO OUT OF CONTROL. 524 00:26:30,206 --> 00:26:33,689 ♪♪ 525 00:26:33,689 --> 00:26:36,310 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR, DOOR OPENS ] 526 00:26:36,310 --> 00:26:37,241 -HELLO. -HI. 527 00:26:37,241 --> 00:26:40,206 -HI. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 528 00:26:40,206 --> 00:26:42,034 -OKAY. -I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 529 00:26:42,034 --> 00:26:43,896 -JENNIFER. -JENNIFER, NICE TO MEET YOU. 530 00:26:43,896 --> 00:26:45,586 -NICE TO MEET YOU. MARISSA. -ALL RIGHT. 531 00:26:45,586 --> 00:26:47,000 NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 532 00:26:47,000 --> 00:26:49,379 SO, YOU BOTH MADE THE TRIP FROM OREGON 533 00:26:49,379 --> 00:26:50,827 TO GET HELP FOR YOUR WEIGHT? 534 00:26:50,827 --> 00:26:53,379 YES. YOU ARE MY ONLY HOPE. 535 00:26:53,379 --> 00:26:57,827 WELL, JENNIFER, YOU ARE AT 636 POUNDS, 536 00:26:57,827 --> 00:27:01,034 AND, MARISSA, YOU ARE AT 573 POUNDS. 537 00:27:01,034 --> 00:27:02,448 MM-HMM. 538 00:27:02,448 --> 00:27:05,689 AND YOU'RE MOTHER AND DAUGHTER TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT TOGETHER? 539 00:27:05,689 --> 00:27:06,862 -MM-HMM. -THAT'S GOOD 540 00:27:06,862 --> 00:27:08,379 BECAUSE RIGHT OFF THE BAT, 541 00:27:08,379 --> 00:27:11,379 I CAN SEE WITH WHERE BOTH OF YOUR WEIGHTS ARE AT. 542 00:27:11,379 --> 00:27:14,724 IT'S CLEAR YOU TWO HAVE UNHEALTHY DYNAMIC, 543 00:27:14,724 --> 00:27:17,586 SO, LET'S START WITH WHO FEEDS WHO. 544 00:27:17,586 --> 00:27:19,241 MY DAUGHTER BRINGS ME FOOD. 545 00:27:19,241 --> 00:27:22,827 DON'T YOU TWO THINK THAT YOU'RE ENABLING EACH OTHER? 546 00:27:22,827 --> 00:27:24,379 -YES. -OF COURSE. 547 00:27:24,379 --> 00:27:27,000 SO, THIS IS NOT A VERY HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP. 548 00:27:27,000 --> 00:27:28,034 NO. 549 00:27:28,034 --> 00:27:30,068 JENNIFER, YOU CAN BLAME YOUR DAUGHTER, 550 00:27:30,068 --> 00:27:32,551 BUT YOU'RE USING HER TO GET YOUR FOOD. 551 00:27:32,551 --> 00:27:35,275 AND MARISSA, YOU CAN BLAME YOUR MOTHER EATING 552 00:27:35,275 --> 00:27:36,793 AND EAT WHEN SHE EAT, 553 00:27:36,793 --> 00:27:39,137 BUT THE TRUTH IS, THAT'S JUST AN EXCUSE 554 00:27:39,137 --> 00:27:41,000 BECAUSE YOU WANT TO EAT, TOO, 555 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:45,724 SO WE HAVE A VERY DYSFUNCTIONAL RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU TWO. 556 00:27:45,724 --> 00:27:47,068 MM-HMM. 557 00:27:47,068 --> 00:27:50,586 AND ONE OF YOU WILL BE BURYING THE OTHER ONE SOON. 558 00:27:50,586 --> 00:27:53,310 MARISSA, DON'T THINK BECAUSE YOU'RE YOUNGER 559 00:27:53,310 --> 00:27:55,068 AND SMALLER RIGHT NOW 560 00:27:55,068 --> 00:27:57,068 THAT YOU'RE THAT MUCH BETTER OFF. 561 00:27:57,068 --> 00:27:58,965 YOU'LL BE UP TO YOUR MOM'S WEIGHT 562 00:27:58,965 --> 00:28:00,758 WITHIN THE YEAR AT THIS RATE. 563 00:28:00,758 --> 00:28:03,206 -YEAH. -AND WHEN YOU'RE THAT SIZE, 564 00:28:03,206 --> 00:28:06,517 ONE SMALL THING CAN PUSH YOUR BODIES OVER THE EDGE. 565 00:28:06,517 --> 00:28:08,137 OKAY. 566 00:28:08,137 --> 00:28:12,068 SO IT IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT THAT YOU BOTH DO THIS NOW. 567 00:28:12,068 --> 00:28:14,310 DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME? -YEAH. 568 00:28:14,310 --> 00:28:18,448 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU BOTH A 1,200 CALORIE, HIGH-PROTEIN, 569 00:28:18,448 --> 00:28:22,482 LOW-CARB DIET THAT YOU NEED TO START ON IMMEDIATELY. 570 00:28:22,482 --> 00:28:23,896 -OKAY. -OKAY? 571 00:28:23,896 --> 00:28:27,655 AND EATING HABIT NEEDS TO BE LIMITED TO THREE TIMES A DAY, 572 00:28:27,655 --> 00:28:29,379 AND YOU NEED TO START LIMITING 573 00:28:29,379 --> 00:28:31,551 THE AMOUNT OF TIME YOU EAT TOGETHER 574 00:28:31,551 --> 00:28:35,000 BECAUSE YOU TWO NEED TO LEARN TO DO THINGS TOGETHER 575 00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:36,965 OTHER THAN EAT. 576 00:28:36,965 --> 00:28:40,517 AND IF YOU STICK TO 1,200 CALORIE A DAY, 577 00:28:40,517 --> 00:28:43,758 YOU'RE GONNA BE EASILY LOSING A POUND A DAY. 578 00:28:43,758 --> 00:28:47,448 SO, THE WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL I WANT TO SEE FROM BOTH OF YOU 579 00:28:47,448 --> 00:28:50,620 IS 60 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS, OKAY? 580 00:28:50,620 --> 00:28:52,068 OKAY? -MM-HMM. 581 00:28:52,068 --> 00:28:55,103 AND IF YOU WORK AT THIS, YOU TWO CAN BECOME 582 00:28:55,103 --> 00:28:57,724 A GREAT SOURCE OF SUPPORT FOR EACH OTHER, 583 00:28:57,724 --> 00:29:00,379 AND THAT NEEDS TO BE YOUR GOAL. 584 00:29:00,379 --> 00:29:02,758 Y'ALL THINK YOU CAN HANDLE ALL THIS? 585 00:29:02,758 --> 00:29:04,172 -YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. 586 00:29:04,172 --> 00:29:06,827 WELL, NICE TO MEET YOU. -VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. 587 00:29:06,827 --> 00:29:08,172 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU. 588 00:29:08,172 --> 00:29:09,620 NICE TO MEET YOU. OKAY? 589 00:29:09,620 --> 00:29:11,137 -THANK YOU. -MM-HMM. 590 00:29:11,137 --> 00:29:13,758 ♪♪ 591 00:29:13,758 --> 00:29:17,275 Dr. Nowzaradan: JENNIFER AND MARISSA HAVE HAD A DYSFUNCTIONAL 592 00:29:17,275 --> 00:29:20,724 AND ENABLING RELATIONSHIP FOR A WHILE NOW, 593 00:29:20,724 --> 00:29:24,413 AND THEY HAVE BEEN STARTING TO USING EACH OTHER 594 00:29:24,413 --> 00:29:26,724 AS AN EXCUSE TO CONSTANTLY EAT, 595 00:29:26,724 --> 00:29:30,241 AND CHANGING THAT DYNAMIC IS GOING TO BE A BIG PART 596 00:29:30,241 --> 00:29:33,758 OF ENSURING THEIR LONG-TERM SUCCESS, 597 00:29:33,758 --> 00:29:36,896 AND IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY, 598 00:29:36,896 --> 00:29:38,931 BUT THEY HAVE TO TAKE THE FIRST STEP 599 00:29:38,931 --> 00:29:41,655 AND SHOW ME THAT THEY ARE READY TO DO THIS 600 00:29:41,655 --> 00:29:44,206 BEFORE THE SITUATION GETS EVEN WORSE. 601 00:29:44,206 --> 00:29:46,896 ♪♪ 602 00:29:46,896 --> 00:29:49,379 Jennifer: WE BOTH KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT, 603 00:29:49,379 --> 00:29:53,034 AND ONE OF US WILL BE BURYING THE OTHER SOON, 604 00:29:53,034 --> 00:29:54,827 AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 605 00:29:56,931 --> 00:29:59,379 SO THIS IS OUR CHANCE TO CHANGE THAT 606 00:29:59,379 --> 00:30:02,068 AND HAVE A DIFFERENT FUTURE. 607 00:30:02,068 --> 00:30:06,000 Marissa: THE NEXT STEP IS LOSING THIS WEIGHT WE NEED TO LOSE 608 00:30:06,000 --> 00:30:09,655 AND MAKING THE TRIP BACK OUT HERE, 609 00:30:09,655 --> 00:30:12,241 AND IT'S GONNA BE ONE HECK OF A RIDE. 610 00:30:12,241 --> 00:30:14,724 ♪♪ 611 00:30:17,655 --> 00:30:25,724 ♪♪ 612 00:30:25,724 --> 00:30:33,793 ♪♪ 613 00:30:33,793 --> 00:30:35,137 Marissa: MY MOM AND I HAVE DONE A GOOD JOB 614 00:30:35,137 --> 00:30:38,241 STICKING TO THE DIET THAT DR. NOW GAVE US, 615 00:30:38,241 --> 00:30:41,896 BUT I MAKE ALL THE MEALS FOR US. 616 00:30:41,896 --> 00:30:44,448 I'M USED TO DOING EVERYTHING FOR MY MOM, 617 00:30:44,448 --> 00:30:48,517 SO I'M NOT SURPRISED I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR HER, TOO, 618 00:30:48,517 --> 00:30:50,068 BUT I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY 619 00:30:50,068 --> 00:30:53,482 MY MOM CAN TAKE CARE OF HERSELF. 620 00:30:53,482 --> 00:30:56,931 I HAVE BEEN CHEATING A LITTLE BIT WHEN I'M AT WORK, 621 00:30:56,931 --> 00:30:59,310 BUT WE DO A GOOD JOB WHEN WE'RE EATING TOGETHER, 622 00:30:59,310 --> 00:31:02,241 AND OVERALL, I THINK I'M DOING PRETTY GOOD. 623 00:31:02,241 --> 00:31:03,862 I'VE BEEN WORKING OUT A LOT, 624 00:31:03,862 --> 00:31:07,896 AND I WANT TO TRY AND GET MY MOM EXERCISING TOO, 625 00:31:07,896 --> 00:31:11,931 BUT IT TAKES A WHILE TO TALK HER INTO DOING NEW THINGS. 626 00:31:11,931 --> 00:31:15,482 I JUST HOPE THAT WE CAN STICK WITH THIS 627 00:31:15,482 --> 00:31:17,965 BECAUSE OUR LIVES ARE ON THE LINE. 628 00:31:19,931 --> 00:31:21,827 I WANT TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 629 00:31:24,103 --> 00:31:26,241 I JUST HOPE IT'S NOT TOO LATE. 630 00:31:26,241 --> 00:31:30,344 ♪♪ 631 00:31:30,344 --> 00:31:31,965 YUM. 632 00:31:31,965 --> 00:31:33,241 YAY, EGGS. 633 00:31:33,241 --> 00:31:34,482 [ CHUCKLES ] 634 00:31:34,482 --> 00:31:39,517 ♪♪ 635 00:31:39,517 --> 00:31:41,793 GOOD JOB.THEY'RE EGGS, MOM. 636 00:31:41,793 --> 00:31:43,896 -JUST KIDDING. -I CAN COOK EGGS. 637 00:31:45,586 --> 00:31:48,482 Jennifer: THIS IS A REALLY BIG STEP FOR ME. 638 00:31:48,482 --> 00:31:51,551 I'M EATING SO MUCH LESS THAN I'M USED TO. 639 00:31:51,551 --> 00:31:53,827 I CAN'T EAT THE THINGS I WANT TO. 640 00:31:53,827 --> 00:31:55,379 I HAVE TO MAKE THESE SACRIFICES 641 00:31:55,379 --> 00:31:57,586 TO GET TO THE WEIGHT THAT I WANT, 642 00:31:57,586 --> 00:31:59,103 AND I CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT MARISSA. 643 00:31:59,103 --> 00:32:01,586 OKAY, I'M DONE. 644 00:32:01,586 --> 00:32:04,310 I RELY ON HER TO MAKE WHAT I EAT, 645 00:32:04,310 --> 00:32:05,689 AND I JUST HOPE SHE'S NOT CHEATING 646 00:32:05,689 --> 00:32:08,379 WHILE SHE'S OUT OF THE APARTMENT 647 00:32:08,379 --> 00:32:11,827 BECAUSE I NEED MARISSA TO DO THIS WITH ME. 648 00:32:11,827 --> 00:32:16,034 WITHOUT HER, I WON'T BE ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT, 649 00:32:16,034 --> 00:32:18,931 AND IF I DON'T LOSE WEIGHT, I'M NOT GONNA LIVE MUCH LONGER. 650 00:32:18,931 --> 00:32:26,517 ♪♪ 651 00:32:26,517 --> 00:32:28,689 HI, BABY. HI, MAMA. 652 00:32:28,689 --> 00:32:30,862 HOW ARE YOU? 653 00:32:30,862 --> 00:32:31,965 DO YOU WANT TO GO WITH ME? 654 00:32:31,965 --> 00:32:34,000 -NO. -BUT YOU SHOULD. 655 00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:36,655 -I REALLY DON'T WANT TO. -I KNOW, BUT YOU SHOULD. 656 00:32:39,034 --> 00:32:40,655 ALL RIGHT, I'M GONNA PUT THESE IN THE FRIDGE, 657 00:32:40,655 --> 00:32:42,931 AND THEN WE'RE GONNA GO. 658 00:32:42,931 --> 00:32:44,655 Jennifer: SINCE SEEING THE DOCTOR, 659 00:32:44,655 --> 00:32:46,172 MARISSA AND I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING THE DIET, 660 00:32:46,172 --> 00:32:48,931 BUT I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN EXERCISING. 661 00:32:48,931 --> 00:32:50,965 I DON'T LIKE GOING OUT. 662 00:32:50,965 --> 00:32:54,620 I JUST FEEL LIKE I GET JUDGED AND LOOKED AT, 663 00:32:54,620 --> 00:32:56,137 AND IT'S NOT PLEASANT. 664 00:32:56,137 --> 00:33:01,620 ♪♪ 665 00:33:01,620 --> 00:33:02,655 I'VE CHANGED MY EATING. 666 00:33:02,655 --> 00:33:05,103 NOW I NEED TO CHANGE MY EXERCISE. 667 00:33:05,103 --> 00:33:08,034 ♪♪ 668 00:33:08,034 --> 00:33:10,620 WHAT DISCOURAGES ME IS MY OWN SELF, 669 00:33:10,620 --> 00:33:12,206 MY OWN INSECURITIES, 670 00:33:12,206 --> 00:33:15,724 AND THEN HOW PEOPLE TREAT ME WHEN I'M OUTSIDE. 671 00:33:15,724 --> 00:33:17,655 ♪♪ 672 00:33:17,655 --> 00:33:19,206 THEY'RE NOT ALWAYS VERY NICE, 673 00:33:19,206 --> 00:33:20,862 SO IT MAKES YOU NOT WANT TO GO OUT 674 00:33:20,862 --> 00:33:23,758 AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO. 675 00:33:23,758 --> 00:33:25,758 ALL RIGHT. 676 00:33:25,758 --> 00:33:27,379 YOU READY? NO. 677 00:33:27,379 --> 00:33:29,206 WHY NOT?I DON'T WANT TO GO. 678 00:33:29,206 --> 00:33:30,551 -WHY? -'CAUSE IT'S SCARY. 679 00:33:30,551 --> 00:33:33,448 I KNOW IT'S SCARY. 680 00:33:33,448 --> 00:33:35,482 I JUST THINK IT'S STILL TOO SOON. 681 00:33:35,482 --> 00:33:37,931 I'M ALREADY OUT OF BREATH, AND I'M ALREADY HURTING. 682 00:33:37,931 --> 00:33:40,275 BUT IF YOU DON'T TRY, YOU'RE NEVER GONNA DO IT. 683 00:33:40,275 --> 00:33:43,275 SO WHAT IF WE STARTED JUST A WALK? 684 00:33:43,275 --> 00:33:47,103 YOU WANT TO TRY AND WALK TO THE END? 685 00:33:47,103 --> 00:33:48,172 ALL RIGHT. 686 00:33:48,172 --> 00:33:54,344 ♪♪ 687 00:33:54,344 --> 00:33:57,724 I'M NOT READY TO GO SOMEWHERE AS PUBLIC AS A GYM. 688 00:33:57,724 --> 00:34:00,827 IT'S TOO BIG A STEP FOR ME RIGHT NOW, 689 00:34:00,827 --> 00:34:04,551 ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M SO TIRED JUST GETTING TO THE CAR, 690 00:34:04,551 --> 00:34:08,275 BUT I'M GONNA TRY AND WALK A LITTLE BIT WITH MARISSA 691 00:34:08,275 --> 00:34:10,448 BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE TO PUSH MYSELF. 692 00:34:10,448 --> 00:34:12,241 YOU CAN WALK TO THE END AND WALK BACK. 693 00:34:12,241 --> 00:34:14,517 ARE YOU DYING? YOU'RE BREATHING FINE. 694 00:34:14,517 --> 00:34:16,862 I HATE LIFE. 695 00:34:16,862 --> 00:34:20,310 PHYSICALLY, MY BODY IS IN A LOT OF PAIN. 696 00:34:20,310 --> 00:34:22,551 MY FEET, MY HIPS, EVERYTHING IS BURNING. 697 00:34:22,551 --> 00:34:25,241 LIKE, I JUST WANT HER TO GO GET THE CAR. 698 00:34:25,241 --> 00:34:26,724 DO YOU LIKE THE OUTSIDE? 699 00:34:26,724 --> 00:34:28,448 I'VE NEVER BEEN OUT HERE. 700 00:34:28,448 --> 00:34:31,344 ♪♪ 701 00:34:31,344 --> 00:34:33,482 I CAN WALK BACK NOW? 702 00:34:33,482 --> 00:34:36,310 I WANT TO TELL YOU NO. 703 00:34:36,310 --> 00:34:38,862 WHAT IF I GET OVER THERE AND THEN I CAN'T WALK BACK? 704 00:34:38,862 --> 00:34:41,275 WELL, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO. THERE AIN'T NO "CAN'T." 705 00:34:44,310 --> 00:34:47,379 ♪♪ 706 00:34:47,379 --> 00:34:49,965 WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I WALKED? 707 00:34:49,965 --> 00:34:51,448 NEVER. 708 00:34:51,448 --> 00:34:53,551 I NEED TO STOP FOR A MINUTE. 709 00:34:53,551 --> 00:34:57,103 I REMEMBER WALKING IN 2008. 710 00:34:57,103 --> 00:34:59,586 THAT'S A LONG TIME. THAT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY. 711 00:34:59,586 --> 00:35:01,620 YEAH, THAT'S NINE YEARS. 712 00:35:01,620 --> 00:35:04,103 WELL, THAT'S AN EYE-OPENER. 713 00:35:04,103 --> 00:35:07,586 ♪♪ 714 00:35:07,586 --> 00:35:11,103 THERE'S NO WAY I COULD HAVE GONE TO THE GYM TODAY, 715 00:35:11,103 --> 00:35:14,034 BUT I'M GLAD WE AT LEAST DID SOMETHING, 716 00:35:14,034 --> 00:35:16,862 AND I WILL MAKE IT TO THE GYM SOON. 717 00:35:16,862 --> 00:35:18,137 [ PANTING ] 718 00:35:18,137 --> 00:35:20,448 ♪♪ 719 00:35:20,448 --> 00:35:23,206 OH! SON OF A [BLEEP] 720 00:35:23,206 --> 00:35:26,034 ♪♪ 721 00:35:26,034 --> 00:35:28,827 -WHAT DID I JUST DO? -YOU WALKED. 722 00:35:28,827 --> 00:35:30,103 Marissa: LOTS OF PEOPLE DO IT. 723 00:35:30,103 --> 00:35:33,689 -I DID THAT. -YOU DID IT, MOM. 724 00:35:33,689 --> 00:35:35,034 I CAN DO THIS. 725 00:35:35,034 --> 00:35:36,655 YOU CAN. 726 00:35:36,655 --> 00:35:38,172 WECAN DO THIS. MM-HMM. 727 00:35:38,172 --> 00:35:42,965 ♪♪ 728 00:35:42,965 --> 00:35:46,448 FOR THE FIRST TIME, I BELIEVE I CAN LOSE THIS WEIGHT. 729 00:35:46,448 --> 00:35:48,034 I'M STARTING TO BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE. 730 00:35:48,034 --> 00:35:55,034 ♪♪ 731 00:35:55,034 --> 00:36:02,137 ♪♪ 732 00:36:02,137 --> 00:36:05,448 Jennifer: WE JUST GOT OFF THE PLANE COMING FROM OREGON, 733 00:36:05,448 --> 00:36:08,206 AND WE'RE ABOUT TO SEE DR. NOW FOR OUR SECOND WEIGH-IN. 734 00:36:08,206 --> 00:36:12,137 ♪♪ 735 00:36:12,137 --> 00:36:16,827 I'M READY FOR HIM TO SAY, "THIS IS A GO." 736 00:36:16,827 --> 00:36:19,172 I'M READY FOR HIM TO SAY THAT WE CAN MOVE HERE 737 00:36:19,172 --> 00:36:23,137 AND GET STARTED AND BEGIN OUR NEW LIFE. 738 00:36:23,137 --> 00:36:24,827 JENNIFER AND MARISSA? 739 00:36:27,172 --> 00:36:30,793 DR. NOW WANTED ME TO LOSE OVER 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS, 740 00:36:30,793 --> 00:36:33,827 AND I'M SCARED I HAVEN'T DONE IT. 741 00:36:33,827 --> 00:36:36,862 IF I HAVEN'T LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT, THIS COULD ALL BE OVER FOR ME. 742 00:36:36,862 --> 00:36:39,862 ♪♪ 743 00:36:39,862 --> 00:36:42,517 MY LIFE IS ON THE LINE. 744 00:36:42,517 --> 00:36:44,413 THIS COULD BE MY LAST CHANCE. 745 00:36:44,413 --> 00:36:46,068 ♪♪ 746 00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:56,310 ♪♪ 747 00:36:56,310 --> 00:36:57,931 ALL RIGHT, SO WHO WANTS TO GO FIRST? 748 00:36:57,931 --> 00:36:59,275 I DO. 749 00:36:59,275 --> 00:37:02,103 ♪♪ 750 00:37:02,103 --> 00:37:05,137 Jennifer: WE'RE HERE AT DR. NOW'S FOR OUR SECOND WEIGH-IN, 751 00:37:05,137 --> 00:37:07,724 AND I'M SO ANXIOUS TO SEE IF I LOST THE 60 POUNDS 752 00:37:07,724 --> 00:37:09,413 I WAS SUPPOSED TO. 753 00:37:09,413 --> 00:37:13,310 ♪♪ 754 00:37:13,310 --> 00:37:14,448 YAY. -NICE. 755 00:37:14,448 --> 00:37:17,344 I DID IT. 756 00:37:17,344 --> 00:37:20,137 ARE YOU EXCITED? 757 00:37:20,137 --> 00:37:22,482 THAT FEELS AMAZING. 758 00:37:22,482 --> 00:37:25,793 I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER LOST THAT MUCH IN A MONTH. 759 00:37:25,793 --> 00:37:27,931 I JUST HOPE MARISSA MET THE GOAL, TOO. 760 00:37:30,034 --> 00:37:34,137 Marissa: I HAD THE GOAL OF LOSING 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS, 761 00:37:34,137 --> 00:37:36,931 SO I NEED TO BE AT LEAST 513 TODAY. 762 00:37:36,931 --> 00:37:46,413 ♪♪ 763 00:37:46,413 --> 00:37:49,172 YOU DID OKAY. 764 00:37:49,172 --> 00:37:53,000 I'M REALLY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF RIGHT NOW 765 00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:57,103 BECAUSE I DIDN'T MEET MY GOAL WEIGHT. 766 00:37:57,103 --> 00:37:59,344 Marissa: [ Voice breaking ] I JUST KEPT TELLING MYSELF, "TOMORROW I'LL DO BETTER. 767 00:37:59,344 --> 00:38:02,034 TOMORROW I'LL DO BETTER," AND THEN... 768 00:38:02,034 --> 00:38:04,413 BEFORE I KNEW IT, I WAS BACK HERE, 769 00:38:04,413 --> 00:38:07,689 AND I DIDN'T DO WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO, 770 00:38:07,689 --> 00:38:11,275 SO I THINK I'M KIND OF REALIZING THAT THIS IS REAL, 771 00:38:11,275 --> 00:38:14,034 AND I NEED TO ACTUALLY DO IT. [ SNIFFLES ] 772 00:38:14,034 --> 00:38:16,724 ♪♪ 773 00:38:16,724 --> 00:38:18,931 WELL, THAT WAS DEPRESSING. 774 00:38:18,931 --> 00:38:20,275 I'M SORRY. 775 00:38:20,275 --> 00:38:22,689 FOR WHAT? YOU DIDN'T DO IT. 776 00:38:24,137 --> 00:38:27,482 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR, DOOR OPENS ] 777 00:38:27,482 --> 00:38:28,758 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 778 00:38:28,758 --> 00:38:30,689 -HI. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 779 00:38:30,689 --> 00:38:33,068 -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? -ALL RIGHT. 780 00:38:33,068 --> 00:38:36,241 HOW Y'ALL FEELING AFTER A TRIP DOWN TO HOUSTON AGAIN? 781 00:38:36,241 --> 00:38:37,896 I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 782 00:38:37,896 --> 00:38:39,758 IT'S SO LONG AND HARD. 783 00:38:39,758 --> 00:38:42,896 WELL, IT'S A VERY LONG TRIP, ESPECIALLY AT YOUR SIZE. 784 00:38:42,896 --> 00:38:44,103 YEAH. 785 00:38:44,103 --> 00:38:46,344 WELL, JENNIFER, THAT SIZE IS GETTING A LOT SMALLER 786 00:38:46,344 --> 00:38:49,448 BECAUSE YOU LOST 64 POUNDS, 787 00:38:49,448 --> 00:38:52,482 AND YOU'RE DOWN TO 572. 788 00:38:52,482 --> 00:38:54,379 -YES. -THAT'S EXCELLENT. 789 00:38:54,379 --> 00:38:56,241 SO, HOW WERE YOUR DIET CHANGES? 790 00:38:56,241 --> 00:38:58,862 IT WAS HARD AT FIRST, BUT IT'S BEEN REALLY GOOD. 791 00:38:58,862 --> 00:39:02,275 WELL, YOU DID GREAT, BUT, MARISSA, 792 00:39:02,275 --> 00:39:04,793 YOU DIDN'T MAKE AS MUCH PROGRESS. 793 00:39:04,793 --> 00:39:08,068 WHAT HAPPENED WITH YOU? YOU ONLY LOST 13 POUNDS. 794 00:39:08,068 --> 00:39:10,137 I CHEAT A LITTLE BIT. YEAH. 795 00:39:10,137 --> 00:39:11,862 I WOULDN'T CALL THAT CHEAT "A LITTLE BIT." 796 00:39:11,862 --> 00:39:14,517 -YEAH. -I WOULD CALL THAT CHEAT A LOT. 797 00:39:14,517 --> 00:39:15,793 YEAH. 798 00:39:15,793 --> 00:39:18,137 DID YOU CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT MUCH AT ALL? 799 00:39:18,137 --> 00:39:19,517 YEAH, I'VE CHANGED A LOT. 800 00:39:19,517 --> 00:39:22,275 JUST ONCE IN A WHILE, I'LL EAT STUFF 801 00:39:22,275 --> 00:39:24,000 THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO EAT, 802 00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:27,965 BUT FOR THE MOST PART, I EAT THE SAME STUFF THAT SHE EATS, 803 00:39:27,965 --> 00:39:30,620 AND I'VE BEEN GOING TO THE GYM FOUR TIMES A WEEK. 804 00:39:30,620 --> 00:39:33,517 SO, HOW COME SHE'S LOSING WEIGHT, BUT YOU'RE NOT? 805 00:39:33,517 --> 00:39:36,862 -I EAT WHEN I'M NOT AT HOME. -OH. 806 00:39:36,862 --> 00:39:39,655 YOU'RE SECRETLY EATING ON YOUR OWN. 807 00:39:39,655 --> 00:39:41,034 BUT I'VE BEEN EXERCISING A LOT, 808 00:39:41,034 --> 00:39:43,137 SO I THOUGHT I WAS DOING BETTER. 809 00:39:43,137 --> 00:39:45,517 THAT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING. 810 00:39:45,517 --> 00:39:50,068 YOU BURN 300 TO 500 CALORIE, BUT TAKING EXTRA 2,000 TO 3,000, 811 00:39:50,068 --> 00:39:52,931 YOU'RE STILL GOING TO GAIN AND PUT ON FAT, 812 00:39:52,931 --> 00:39:55,137 AND YOU'RE HALF OF YOUR MOM'S AGE, 813 00:39:55,137 --> 00:39:58,724 SO YOUR METABOLISM CAN ADAPT MUCH FASTER, 814 00:39:58,724 --> 00:40:01,793 SO THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR YOU DOING SO POORLY. 815 00:40:01,793 --> 00:40:03,034 RIGHT. 816 00:40:03,034 --> 00:40:05,965 AND IF YOUR MOM KEEPS LOSING THE WEIGHT LIKE SHE DID, 817 00:40:05,965 --> 00:40:10,000 THEN YOU'RE ABOUT TWO WEEKS AWAY FROM BECOMING THE BIGGER ONE, 818 00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:11,413 AND YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND 819 00:40:11,413 --> 00:40:13,655 THE FULL SCOPE OF YOUR SITUATION. 820 00:40:13,655 --> 00:40:16,103 YOU KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN WHEN YOU GET TO HER AGE? 821 00:40:16,103 --> 00:40:18,310 YOU'RE GONNA BE TWICE AS BIG AS SHE IS. 822 00:40:18,310 --> 00:40:19,482 YEAH. 823 00:40:19,482 --> 00:40:22,517 SO YOU NEED TO GET SERIOUS ABOUT YOUR SITUATION. 824 00:40:22,517 --> 00:40:24,000 DON'T WORRY ABOUT YOUR MOM. 825 00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:27,000 SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN APPROVED FOR A WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY 826 00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:29,448 IF YOU HAD TAKEN THIS MORE SERIOUSLY. 827 00:40:29,448 --> 00:40:31,931 WORRY ABOUT YOUR SITUATION BECAUSE YOU'RE HEADING 828 00:40:31,931 --> 00:40:33,931 TO A MUCH WORSE PLACE THAN HER. 829 00:40:33,931 --> 00:40:35,344 OKAY? OKAY. 830 00:40:35,344 --> 00:40:39,172 YOU TWO ARE LIVING TOGETHER AND HELPING ENABLING EACH OTHER, 831 00:40:39,172 --> 00:40:41,793 AND I NEED TO KNOW THAT DYNAMIC HAS CHANGED, 832 00:40:41,793 --> 00:40:44,379 SO YOU BOTH NEED TO HIT YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL 833 00:40:44,379 --> 00:40:46,310 BEFORE YOU'RE READY TO MOVE AHEAD. 834 00:40:46,310 --> 00:40:48,758 OKAY. -SO, JENNIFER, YOU DID GREAT, 835 00:40:48,758 --> 00:40:50,586 BUT I NEED YOU TO STAY ON TRACK 836 00:40:50,586 --> 00:40:54,000 AND LOSE ANOTHER 60 POUNDS OVER NEXT TWO MONTHS. 837 00:40:54,000 --> 00:40:55,034 OKAY. 838 00:40:55,034 --> 00:40:56,517 AND, MARISSA, YOUR MOM IS SERIOUS 839 00:40:56,517 --> 00:40:59,241 AND UNDERSTANDS HER SITUATION, 840 00:40:59,241 --> 00:41:02,965 SO, YOU NEED TO DO WHAT SHE DOES AND EAT LIKE SHE'S EATING, 841 00:41:02,965 --> 00:41:06,034 AND YOU SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM LOSING 60 POUNDS 842 00:41:06,034 --> 00:41:08,344 OVER NEXT TWO MONTHS. OKAY. 843 00:41:08,344 --> 00:41:11,413 -SHOW ME YOU ARE SERIOUS, OKAY? -OKAY. 844 00:41:11,413 --> 00:41:13,724 -NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. -NICE TO SEE YOU. 845 00:41:13,724 --> 00:41:15,000 ALL RIGHT. 846 00:41:17,310 --> 00:41:20,862 I'M VERY HAPPY TO SEE THE PROGRESS JENNIFER HAS MADE, 847 00:41:20,862 --> 00:41:24,068 BUT MARISSA IS OBVIOUSLY THE CONCERN RIGHT NOW, 848 00:41:24,068 --> 00:41:26,551 NOT JUST THAT, SHE NEEDS TO TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, 849 00:41:26,551 --> 00:41:28,517 BUT THE EFFECT IT WILL HAVE ON JENNIFER 850 00:41:28,517 --> 00:41:32,034 IF MARISSA ISN'T DOING WHAT SHE NEEDS. 851 00:41:32,034 --> 00:41:34,827 THEY'VE BEEN ENABLING EACH OTHER FOR YEARS, 852 00:41:34,827 --> 00:41:37,206 AND THAT HAS TO BE ADDRESSED SUFFICIENTLY ENOUGH 853 00:41:37,206 --> 00:41:40,137 BEFORE EITHER ONE OF THEM CAN MOVE AHEAD, 854 00:41:40,137 --> 00:41:44,172 WHICH MEANS THEY BOTH DO THIS TOGETHER AND SUPPORT ONE ANOTHER 855 00:41:44,172 --> 00:41:45,620 BECAUSE THE REALITY IS, 856 00:41:45,620 --> 00:41:48,413 IF MARISSA DOESN'T START TO DO THIS NOW, 857 00:41:48,413 --> 00:41:50,586 THEN IT IS LIKELY THAT SHE WILL CONTINUE 858 00:41:50,586 --> 00:41:53,896 TO BE A SOURCE OF ENABLING FOR HER MOM, 859 00:41:53,896 --> 00:41:55,724 AND THAT WILL DERAIL HER. 860 00:41:55,724 --> 00:41:58,103 -WANT ME TO GET THE BACKPACKS? -I GOT IT. I GOT IT. I GOT IT. 861 00:41:58,103 --> 00:41:59,310 JUST GO. 862 00:41:59,310 --> 00:42:01,620 Jennifer: I'M EXCITED THAT I MET MY GOAL TODAY. 863 00:42:03,655 --> 00:42:07,241 I'M FEELING MUCH BETTER THAN I DID WHEN WE STARTED THIS, 864 00:42:07,241 --> 00:42:10,586 AND I'M MORE DETERMINED THAN EVER TO GET THE SURGERY. 865 00:42:10,586 --> 00:42:13,000 I KNOW NEITHER OF US WANTS TO KEEP MAKING THE TRIP 866 00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:15,241 BACK AND FORTH FROM OREGON, 867 00:42:15,241 --> 00:42:19,827 SO I'M READY TO FULLY COMMIT TO THIS AND MOVE TO HOUSTON, 868 00:42:19,827 --> 00:42:22,862 BUT I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT MARISSA. 869 00:42:22,862 --> 00:42:25,655 I JUST HOPE SHE CAN START TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT 870 00:42:25,655 --> 00:42:27,172 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, 871 00:42:27,172 --> 00:42:29,551 DR. NOW MIGHT STOP WORKING WITH HER, 872 00:42:29,551 --> 00:42:31,620 AND I CAN'T GO TO TEXAS AND DO THIS ALONE. 873 00:42:31,620 --> 00:42:38,137 ♪♪ 874 00:42:38,137 --> 00:42:44,655 ♪♪ 875 00:42:44,655 --> 00:42:48,896 WE ARE OFFICIALLY MOVING TO TEXAS. 876 00:42:48,896 --> 00:42:52,931 THE TRIP SHOULD TAKE US ABOUT THREE DAYS. 877 00:42:52,931 --> 00:42:56,241 I'M UPROOTING MY WHOLE FAMILY AND UPROOTING MYSELF 878 00:42:56,241 --> 00:42:59,344 AND JUST DOING IT ON BLIND FAITH 879 00:42:59,344 --> 00:43:03,172 AND MOVING TO A PLACE THAT I'VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE. 880 00:43:03,172 --> 00:43:05,965 I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 881 00:43:05,965 --> 00:43:13,000 TODAY, IT'S GOING TO BE ME AND MY MOM AND MY DAD AND NICOLE. 882 00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:14,241 NICOLE IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, 883 00:43:14,241 --> 00:43:16,068 AND SHE WANTED TO MOVE WITH US. 884 00:43:18,482 --> 00:43:21,103 I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. IT'S GONNA BE A LONG DRIVE. 885 00:43:23,551 --> 00:43:25,931 PLUS, MY MOM AND DAWAYNE HAVE BEEN FIGHTING A LOT, 886 00:43:25,931 --> 00:43:29,379 AND IT MAKES THINGS TENSE FOR ALL OF US. 887 00:43:29,379 --> 00:43:31,793 I JUST HOPE GETTING TO HOUSTON AND MAKING THIS CHANGE 888 00:43:31,793 --> 00:43:34,517 WILL MAKE THINGS EASIER ON US. 889 00:43:34,517 --> 00:43:35,965 GOT EVERYTHING? 890 00:43:35,965 --> 00:43:37,758 Marissa: YEAH. 891 00:43:37,758 --> 00:43:39,965 I'M READY TO GO. 892 00:43:39,965 --> 00:43:41,724 ARE YOU GONNA CRY? 893 00:43:41,724 --> 00:43:45,241 I'M NOT. I'M READY. 894 00:43:45,241 --> 00:43:47,103 THIS IS OUR LAST CHANCE FOR HELP, BUT IF MY MOM 895 00:43:47,103 --> 00:43:51,034 DOESN'T GET HELP, THEN SHE'S NOT GONNA LIVE MUCH LONGER. 896 00:43:51,034 --> 00:43:53,965 I DON'T THINK IF I GET HELP, I'M GONNA BE RIGHT WHERE SHE IS. 897 00:43:53,965 --> 00:43:56,413 SO, WE HAVE TO DO THIS, 898 00:43:56,413 --> 00:44:00,137 BUT IT'S STILL SCARY TO MAKE SUCH A BIG CHANGE. 899 00:44:00,137 --> 00:44:02,896 I COULD NEVER DO THIS MOVE WITHOUT FAMILY. 900 00:44:02,896 --> 00:44:07,517 I PUT A LOT OF RESPONSIBILITY ON MARISSA AND DAWAYNE, 901 00:44:07,517 --> 00:44:09,655 BUT WE NEED TO LOOK FORWARD. 902 00:44:09,655 --> 00:44:12,000 I NEED TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 903 00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:13,724 I CAN'T RELY ON THEM FOR EVERYTHING. 904 00:44:16,034 --> 00:44:19,275 I NEED TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 905 00:44:19,275 --> 00:44:22,586 AND SO DOES MY DAUGHTER 'CAUSE WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER. 906 00:44:22,586 --> 00:44:26,965 ♪♪ 907 00:44:26,965 --> 00:44:30,275 AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE HARD, 908 00:44:30,275 --> 00:44:32,206 I FEEL LIKE IT'S OUR LAST CHANCE. 909 00:44:32,206 --> 00:44:37,689 ♪♪ 910 00:44:37,689 --> 00:44:43,206 ♪♪ 911 00:44:43,206 --> 00:44:45,620 WE'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD TWO DAYS, 912 00:44:45,620 --> 00:44:48,827 AND I GET UNCOMFORTABLE AND IN PAIN QUICKLY, 913 00:44:48,827 --> 00:44:51,827 SO WE'RE HAVING TO STOP MORE THAN I WOULD LIKE. 914 00:44:51,827 --> 00:44:55,172 AND I'M GRATEFUL THAT EVERYBODY IS BEING UNDERSTANDING, 915 00:44:55,172 --> 00:44:59,758 BUT RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS CAR AND EAT. 916 00:44:59,758 --> 00:45:01,517 Marissa: MY MOM DOESN'T LIKE US DRIVING AT NIGHT, 917 00:45:01,517 --> 00:45:04,448 SO WE'RE HAVING TO FIND A HOTEL. 918 00:45:04,448 --> 00:45:07,862 IT CAN BE FRUSTRATING BECAUSE WE ALL WANT TO GET THERE ALREADY, 919 00:45:07,862 --> 00:45:09,655 BUT KNOW MY MOM'S BODY CAN'T TAKE BEING 920 00:45:09,655 --> 00:45:13,413 IN THE CAR THAT MUCH ANYWAY, 921 00:45:13,413 --> 00:45:16,034 SO WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO GET SOME FOOD AND SPEND THE NIGHT. 922 00:45:16,034 --> 00:45:19,896 ♪♪ 923 00:45:19,896 --> 00:45:24,068 Jennifer: THIS IS THE BIGGEST LIFE CHANGE I MADE IN A LONG TIME, 924 00:45:24,068 --> 00:45:27,689 AND HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT, 925 00:45:27,689 --> 00:45:29,482 SO I JUST WANT TO EAT AND GO TO SLEEP. 926 00:45:29,482 --> 00:45:33,379 ♪♪ 927 00:45:33,379 --> 00:45:36,310 Marissa: WE'RE ALL REALLY HUNGRY AND TIRED, 928 00:45:36,310 --> 00:45:38,862 AND WHILE WE'D LIKE TO EAT WELL, 929 00:45:38,862 --> 00:45:41,379 THERE AREN'T A LOT OF OPTIONS, FOOD-WISE, 930 00:45:41,379 --> 00:45:44,000 SO I'M JUST GONNA ORDER PIZZA. 931 00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:47,000 AN ORDER FOR DELIVERY, PLEASE. -WHAT CAN I GET FOR YOU? 932 00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:51,896 CAN I GET A 12-INCH PEPPERONI PIZZA WITH EXTRA CHEESE? 933 00:45:51,896 --> 00:45:54,344 I KNOW THIS ISN'T WHAT WE SHOULD BE EATING, 934 00:45:54,344 --> 00:45:56,551 BUT I REALLY DON'T CARE AT ALL. 935 00:45:56,551 --> 00:45:59,241 I MEAN, I SHOULD CARE A LOT ABOUT MY DIET, 936 00:45:59,241 --> 00:46:01,137 BUT AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME, I DON'T REALLY CARE. 937 00:46:01,137 --> 00:46:04,758 I'M JUST TRYING TO GET TO TEXAS. 938 00:46:04,758 --> 00:46:07,000 -HI. -HELLO. 939 00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:10,620 WELL, I'M SURE DR. NOW IS NOT GONNA BE TOO HAPPY WITH US, 940 00:46:10,620 --> 00:46:12,862 BUT HE WASN'T HAPPY WITH ME LAST TIME EITHER, 941 00:46:12,862 --> 00:46:14,758 SO I'M KIND OF USED TO THAT. 942 00:46:14,758 --> 00:46:17,275 I DON'T CARE. -ALL RIGHT, BABY. 943 00:46:17,275 --> 00:46:18,896 YOU WANT A RANCH? 944 00:46:20,862 --> 00:46:23,448 I KNOW THAT I KEEP SAYING THIS WILL BE MY LAST CHEAT MEAL, 945 00:46:23,448 --> 00:46:27,137 BUT THIS HAS TO BE MY LAST CHEAT MEAL. 946 00:46:27,137 --> 00:46:28,758 ON THIS ROAD TRIP, I THOUGHT, 947 00:46:28,758 --> 00:46:30,068 Jennifer: "OH, WE'RE GONNA ONLY EAT SALADS. 948 00:46:30,068 --> 00:46:32,137 LIKE, WE'RE GONNA BE SO ON TRACK." 949 00:46:32,137 --> 00:46:34,482 IT'S A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT, BEING ON THE ROAD. 950 00:46:34,482 --> 00:46:35,862 IT REALLY IS. 951 00:46:37,862 --> 00:46:40,931 AND WE STILL HAVE MORE TIME AHEAD OF US, 952 00:46:40,931 --> 00:46:44,206 AND I'M GETTING VERY ANXIOUS. 953 00:46:44,206 --> 00:46:46,724 I WANT TO GET THERE ALREADY, 954 00:46:46,724 --> 00:46:49,724 BUT I'M ALSO REALLY SCARED. 955 00:46:49,724 --> 00:46:51,793 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 956 00:46:51,793 --> 00:46:54,793 ♪♪ 957 00:46:54,793 --> 00:46:58,241 I'VE NEVER MADE A BIG MOVE LIKE THIS. 958 00:46:58,241 --> 00:47:00,758 I'M REALLY SCARED. 959 00:47:00,758 --> 00:47:02,517 ♪♪ 960 00:47:06,793 --> 00:47:11,896 ♪♪ 961 00:47:11,896 --> 00:47:17,137 ♪♪ 962 00:47:17,137 --> 00:47:20,551 Jennifer: AFTER SIX LONG DAYS, WE'RE FINALLY ARRIVING IN HOUSTON. 963 00:47:20,551 --> 00:47:23,448 ♪♪ 964 00:47:23,448 --> 00:47:26,310 MY BODY IS HURTING ALL OVER, FROM HEAD TO TOE. 965 00:47:26,310 --> 00:47:27,862 I JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS CAR. 966 00:47:27,862 --> 00:47:29,517 I NEED TO LAY DOWN. 967 00:47:29,517 --> 00:47:32,862 ♪♪ 968 00:47:32,862 --> 00:47:34,413 I'M READY TO REST. 969 00:47:34,413 --> 00:47:36,724 I'M READY. I'M READY. I'M READY. 970 00:47:36,724 --> 00:47:41,896 ♪♪ 971 00:47:41,896 --> 00:47:47,137 ♪♪ 972 00:47:47,137 --> 00:47:50,965 THIS NEIGHBORHOOD LOOKS NOTHING LIKE WHAT WE SAW ON THE WEBSITE. 973 00:47:50,965 --> 00:47:54,310 I THINK IT'S OVER THERE. 974 00:47:54,310 --> 00:47:57,034 I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT OUR APARTMENT IS GONNA LOOK LIKE. 975 00:47:57,034 --> 00:48:03,965 ♪♪ 976 00:48:03,965 --> 00:48:10,827 ♪♪ 977 00:48:10,827 --> 00:48:13,344 THIS AIN'T IT. 978 00:48:13,344 --> 00:48:16,000 ♪♪ 979 00:48:16,000 --> 00:48:19,034 THIS IS A WHOLE DIFFERENT ADDRESS. 980 00:48:19,034 --> 00:48:22,137 Jennifer: I WISH I WOULD HAVE JUST PLANNED THIS. 981 00:48:22,137 --> 00:48:25,137 MY MOM TRIES TO DO STUFF LIKE THIS ON HER OWN, 982 00:48:25,137 --> 00:48:28,413 BUT WHEN SHE DOES, IT NEVER WORKS OUT, 983 00:48:28,413 --> 00:48:30,724 AND THIS WHOLE SITUATION WITH THE WRONG APARTMENT 984 00:48:30,724 --> 00:48:32,482 DOESN'T SURPRISE ME. 985 00:48:32,482 --> 00:48:36,241 I THINK THEY GAVE ME THE WRONG KEY. 986 00:48:36,241 --> 00:48:40,068 MY MOM HAS NO IDEA HOW THE REAL WORLD WORKS. 987 00:48:40,068 --> 00:48:42,620 SHE'S BEEN A HERMIT FOR THE LAST FEW YEARS 988 00:48:42,620 --> 00:48:45,206 AND DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FUNCTION OUTSIDE OF HER LITTLE BUBBLE. 989 00:48:45,206 --> 00:48:49,655 ♪♪ 990 00:48:49,655 --> 00:48:54,241 Jennifer: THIS IS THE LAST THING I NEED TO DEAL WITH RIGHT NOW. 991 00:48:54,241 --> 00:48:56,275 I FEEL TERRIBLE. 992 00:48:56,275 --> 00:48:58,206 I CAN'T GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY. 993 00:48:58,206 --> 00:48:59,965 [ CELLPHONE RINGS ] 994 00:48:59,965 --> 00:49:02,620 HELLO? 995 00:49:02,620 --> 00:49:05,413 YEAH. 996 00:49:05,413 --> 00:49:08,034 SO IT'S A DOWNSTAIRS UNIT? 997 00:49:08,034 --> 00:49:10,103 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 998 00:49:10,103 --> 00:49:11,586 IT'S NEXT DOOR. 999 00:49:11,586 --> 00:49:13,344 IT'S DOWNSTAIRS. 1000 00:49:13,344 --> 00:49:17,034 ♪♪ 1001 00:49:17,034 --> 00:49:20,758 [ Sighing ] OH, GOD, MY LIFE. 1002 00:49:20,758 --> 00:49:23,517 DOES THAT MEAN YOU TURNED ON THE POWER AT THE WRONG PLACE? 1003 00:49:23,517 --> 00:49:26,310 OH, MY GOD. 1004 00:49:26,310 --> 00:49:28,000 I'M GONNA CRY. 1005 00:49:28,000 --> 00:49:32,241 ♪♪ 1006 00:49:32,241 --> 00:49:34,724 [ Crying ] I HATE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. 1007 00:49:36,827 --> 00:49:39,931 Marissa: THE WINDOW IS BROKEN IN HERE. 1008 00:49:39,931 --> 00:49:42,517 SOMEBODY HELP ME, PLEASE. 1009 00:49:42,517 --> 00:49:44,275 I DON'T KNOW. 1010 00:49:44,275 --> 00:49:46,655 I NEED TO CALL THESE PEOPLE. 1011 00:49:46,655 --> 00:49:48,862 WHO DO I CALL? WHAT DO I DO? 1012 00:49:48,862 --> 00:49:51,000 I DON'T KNOW. -STOP IT, MOM. YOU'RE FINE. 1013 00:49:51,000 --> 00:49:55,137 ♪♪ 1014 00:49:55,137 --> 00:49:57,103 Marissa: WHEN STUFF GOES WRONG, 1015 00:49:57,103 --> 00:50:00,413 IT BASICALLY ALL FALLS ON ME TO FIX IT. 1016 00:50:00,413 --> 00:50:03,517 Marissa: HI, WE JUST MOVED DOWN HERE FROM OREGON, 1017 00:50:03,517 --> 00:50:09,482 AND I TURNED ON POWER FOR THE WRONG ADDRESS. 1018 00:50:09,482 --> 00:50:11,965 WELL, SO DOES THAT MEAN YOU'RE NOT GONNA TURN MINE ON? 1019 00:50:14,206 --> 00:50:16,793 MARISSA? WHAT? 1020 00:50:16,793 --> 00:50:18,206 THEY'RE SAYING TOMORROW? 1021 00:50:18,206 --> 00:50:19,413 YES. 1022 00:50:19,413 --> 00:50:22,379 ♪♪ 1023 00:50:22,379 --> 00:50:25,689 Jennifer: [ Voice breaking ] I FEEL SO GUILTY FOR ALL OF THIS. 1024 00:50:25,689 --> 00:50:29,655 I MOVED US INTO THE CRAPPIEST [BLEEP] NEIGHBORHOOD EVER. 1025 00:50:29,655 --> 00:50:31,206 I HAVE NO [BLEEP] POWER. 1026 00:50:31,206 --> 00:50:33,206 I PUT IT INTO THE WRONG APARTMENT 1027 00:50:33,206 --> 00:50:38,172 BECAUSE THE LANDLORD GAVE ME THE WRONG ADDRESS. 1028 00:50:38,172 --> 00:50:41,413 I SAY, YEAH, THAT WE CAN START MOVING STUFF IN. 1029 00:50:41,413 --> 00:50:44,000 I DON'T SEE A POINT IN WAITING AROUND ANY LONGER. 1030 00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:45,448 ALL RIGHT. YOU'RE GOOD. 1031 00:50:47,344 --> 00:50:50,000 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS EXPECTING WHEN WE MOVED HERE... 1032 00:50:50,000 --> 00:50:52,931 ♪♪ 1033 00:50:52,931 --> 00:50:56,655 ...BUT IT WASN'T THIS. 1034 00:50:56,655 --> 00:50:59,655 I HAVE LOTS OF DOUBTS RIGHT NOW ABOUT MY DECISION. 1035 00:50:59,655 --> 00:51:02,034 [ SNIFFLES ] I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS. 1036 00:51:02,034 --> 00:51:04,931 ♪♪ 1037 00:51:04,931 --> 00:51:06,448 Dawayne: WE'RE GOOD. 1038 00:51:08,448 --> 00:51:10,517 I'M GONNA BREAK MY NECK DOING THAT. 1039 00:51:10,517 --> 00:51:12,517 [ SIGHS ] CAN YOU FIT? -[ SIGHS ] 1040 00:51:12,517 --> 00:51:15,482 OKAY. 1041 00:51:15,482 --> 00:51:17,689 MAN. 1042 00:51:17,689 --> 00:51:20,137 I WANT TO GO HOME.THIS IS HOME. 1043 00:51:20,137 --> 00:51:26,655 ♪♪ 1044 00:51:26,655 --> 00:51:33,172 ♪♪ 1045 00:51:33,172 --> 00:51:37,275 Jennifer: WE'RE GOING TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE FOR AN APPOINTMENT TODAY. 1046 00:51:37,275 --> 00:51:42,000 THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SEEING HIM SINCE WE MOVED TO HOUSTON. 1047 00:51:42,000 --> 00:51:44,241 I'M JUST NERVOUS BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I MET THE GOAL. 1048 00:51:44,241 --> 00:51:47,344 ♪♪ 1049 00:51:47,344 --> 00:51:50,000 I'M SO STRESSED WITH EVERYTHING THAT'S BEEN HAPPENING. 1050 00:51:50,000 --> 00:51:51,965 IT'S BEEN REALLY HARD TO STICK TO THE DIET. 1051 00:51:51,965 --> 00:51:54,758 ♪♪ 1052 00:51:54,758 --> 00:51:59,758 DR. NOW GAVE ME A GOAL OF LOSING 60 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 1053 00:51:59,758 --> 00:52:01,965 MARISSA AND JENNIFER? 1054 00:52:01,965 --> 00:52:05,379 SO, I HAVE TO GET TO 512 OR LOWER, 1055 00:52:05,379 --> 00:52:07,586 AND I JUST HOPE, BY SOME MIRACLE, I MET MY GOAL. 1056 00:52:07,586 --> 00:52:13,551 ♪♪ 1057 00:52:13,551 --> 00:52:19,551 ♪♪ 1058 00:52:19,551 --> 00:52:23,137 THAT IS NOT WHAT I WANTED TO SEE ON THE SCALE TODAY. 1059 00:52:23,137 --> 00:52:25,482 I KNEW I PROBABLY HADN'T HIT THE GOAL, 1060 00:52:25,482 --> 00:52:27,758 BUT I DIDN'T THINK I DID THIS BAD. 1061 00:52:27,758 --> 00:52:31,275 I'M SO DISAPPOINTED. 1062 00:52:31,275 --> 00:52:33,689 Marissa: I'M PRETTY NERVOUS ABOUT TODAY. 1063 00:52:33,689 --> 00:52:35,482 I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOSE 60 POUNDS, 1064 00:52:35,482 --> 00:52:38,482 SO I'M REALLY HOPING TO SEE 500 ON THAT SCALE. 1065 00:52:38,482 --> 00:52:45,206 ♪♪ 1066 00:52:45,206 --> 00:52:47,620 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 1067 00:52:47,620 --> 00:52:51,137 NEITHER OF US MET THE GOAL. 1068 00:52:51,137 --> 00:52:53,827 I'VE MISSED MY GOAL TWO APPOINTMENTS IN A ROW... 1069 00:52:56,034 --> 00:52:59,379 ...AND I DID EVEN WORSE THAN LAST TIME. 1070 00:52:59,379 --> 00:53:02,206 THIS MIGHT BE IT FOR ME, 1071 00:53:02,206 --> 00:53:05,517 AND IF I'M FINISHED, THERE'S NO WAY MY MOM WILL KEEP GOING. 1072 00:53:05,517 --> 00:53:08,827 ♪♪ 1073 00:53:08,827 --> 00:53:10,034 HELLO. 1074 00:53:10,034 --> 00:53:11,344 -HELLO. -HELLO. 1075 00:53:11,344 --> 00:53:12,482 HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1076 00:53:12,482 --> 00:53:15,275 -OKAY. HOW ARE YOU? -ALL RIGHT. 1077 00:53:15,275 --> 00:53:17,586 SO, THIS HASN'T BEEN A GOOD COUPLE MONTHS 1078 00:53:17,586 --> 00:53:19,517 FOR YOU TWO, I'M GUESSING. 1079 00:53:19,517 --> 00:53:22,137 JENNIFER, YOU ONLY LOST 9 POUNDS, 1080 00:53:22,137 --> 00:53:25,965 AND, MARISSA, YOU ONLY LOST 12 POUNDS. 1081 00:53:25,965 --> 00:53:28,206 JENNIFER, YOU HAD DONE SO WELL, 1082 00:53:28,206 --> 00:53:31,172 BUT NOW YOU BARELY HAD ANY WEIGHT LOSS. 1083 00:53:31,172 --> 00:53:32,448 WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GOING ON? 1084 00:53:32,448 --> 00:53:35,689 I DON'T KNOW. I MEAN, I KNOW, LIKE, 1085 00:53:35,689 --> 00:53:37,310 I SNACK, AND IT'S A PROBLEM. 1086 00:53:37,310 --> 00:53:39,103 LIKE, IT'S IN MY HEAD, 1087 00:53:39,103 --> 00:53:41,379 BUT I HAVE BEEN, LIKE, WALKING, 1088 00:53:41,379 --> 00:53:43,517 AND I'VE BEEN DOING MY ARMS, 1089 00:53:43,517 --> 00:53:45,862 BUT I KNOW IT'S ALL IN MY FOOD. I GET THAT, 1090 00:53:45,862 --> 00:53:47,551 BUT, LIKE, [SIGHS] 1091 00:53:47,551 --> 00:53:51,206 I'M ADDICTED TO FOOD, LIKE, AND IT'S HARD. 1092 00:53:51,206 --> 00:53:53,965 OKAY, LET ME TELL YOU WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. 1093 00:53:53,965 --> 00:53:55,241 ALL RIGHT? 1094 00:53:55,241 --> 00:53:58,620 THE ISSUE IS YOU HAVE A BAD INFLUENCE AROUND YOU. 1095 00:53:58,620 --> 00:54:01,655 MARISSA, YOU SAID IN FIRST APPOINTMENT 1096 00:54:01,655 --> 00:54:04,896 THAT YOUR MOM'S EATING IS WHY YOU HAVE GAINED. 1097 00:54:04,896 --> 00:54:06,896 -YEAH. -BUT THE REALITY RIGHT NOW 1098 00:54:06,896 --> 00:54:10,551 IS THAT YOU'RE THE ONE INFLUENCING HER, 1099 00:54:10,551 --> 00:54:12,068 AND THIS IS THE VERY REASON 1100 00:54:12,068 --> 00:54:14,862 WHY YOU BOTH HAVE TO HIT YOUR GOALS TOGETHER... 1101 00:54:14,862 --> 00:54:16,034 RIGHT. 1102 00:54:16,034 --> 00:54:18,724 ...BECAUSE IF ONE OF YOU IS NOT DOING IT, 1103 00:54:18,724 --> 00:54:22,724 THEN EVENTUALLY BOTH OF YOU WILL START OVEREATING AGAIN. 1104 00:54:22,724 --> 00:54:24,862 DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME? -UH-HUH. 1105 00:54:24,862 --> 00:54:27,517 SO, WE ARE DOWN TO ONE OF TWO OPTIONS. 1106 00:54:27,517 --> 00:54:30,379 IF EITHER ONE OF YOU WANTS TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1107 00:54:30,379 --> 00:54:33,793 FIRST, I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU ONE MONTH INSTEAD OF TWO 1108 00:54:33,793 --> 00:54:36,724 TO HIT YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL OF 30 POUNDS, 1109 00:54:36,724 --> 00:54:39,517 THE SAME MONTHLY GOAL FOR BOTH OF YOU, 1110 00:54:39,517 --> 00:54:41,965 AND IF YOU BOTH DON'T DO IT THIS TIME, 1111 00:54:41,965 --> 00:54:43,931 THEN THE SECOND OPTION WILL BE 1112 00:54:43,931 --> 00:54:46,965 THAT WE SEPARATE YOU TO BREAK THIS DYNAMIC, 1113 00:54:46,965 --> 00:54:50,034 AND YOU TWO START LIVING APART. 1114 00:54:50,034 --> 00:54:51,965 YOU GOT THAT? -I GET IT. 1115 00:54:51,965 --> 00:54:54,896 OUTSIDE OF THESE TWO OPTIONS, THAT'S IT. 1116 00:54:54,896 --> 00:54:57,689 THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE, SO ARE YOU GONNA BE A FAILURE? 1117 00:54:57,689 --> 00:54:58,896 OR ARE YOU GONNA WASTE OUR TIME? 1118 00:54:58,896 --> 00:55:00,689 NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE A FAILURE. 1119 00:55:00,689 --> 00:55:03,758 MARISSA, YOUR MOM WANTS TO DO THIS, 1120 00:55:03,758 --> 00:55:05,862 AND SHE'S READY TO DO THIS. 1121 00:55:05,862 --> 00:55:08,655 THE ONLY THING HOLDING HER BACK IS YOU, 1122 00:55:08,655 --> 00:55:11,758 SO YOU'RE GOING TO GET SERIOUS ABOUT THIS. 1123 00:55:11,758 --> 00:55:12,896 OKAY. 1124 00:55:12,896 --> 00:55:15,344 IF YOU DON'T, YOU CAN MOVE BACK TO OREGON 1125 00:55:15,344 --> 00:55:17,241 BECAUSE WE'RE NOT GONNA DO SURGERY ON YOU. 1126 00:55:17,241 --> 00:55:19,000 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1127 00:55:19,000 --> 00:55:20,551 SEE YOU IN A MONTH. 1128 00:55:20,551 --> 00:55:24,000 ♪♪ 1129 00:55:24,000 --> 00:55:26,034 Dr. Nowzaradan: THE LACK OF PROGRESS FROM BOTH 1130 00:55:26,034 --> 00:55:28,586 MARISSA AND JENNIFER THIS PAST MONTH 1131 00:55:28,586 --> 00:55:31,551 WAS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS WORRIED ABOUT, 1132 00:55:31,551 --> 00:55:34,793 AND THE DYSFUNCTIONAL DYNAMIC CONTINUES TO BE 1133 00:55:34,793 --> 00:55:38,724 A SOURCE OF LACK OF PROGRESS FOR BOTH OF THEM, 1134 00:55:38,724 --> 00:55:42,517 BUT THIS IS THEIR LAST CHANCE TO DO THIS TOGETHER, 1135 00:55:42,517 --> 00:55:46,068 AND HOPEFULLY THEY'LL DO WHAT THEY NEED THIS NEXT TIME. 1136 00:55:46,068 --> 00:55:49,344 ♪♪ 1137 00:55:49,344 --> 00:55:52,517 Jennifer: DR. NOW IS THREATENING TO SEPARATE US, 1138 00:55:52,517 --> 00:55:55,896 AND I COULDN'T BEAR TO HAVE THAT HAPPEN, 1139 00:55:55,896 --> 00:55:59,448 BUT I'M SCARED WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF WE DON'T DO THIS, 1140 00:55:59,448 --> 00:56:03,275 SO WE HAVE TO BECAUSE OUR LIVES DEPEND ON IT. 1141 00:56:03,275 --> 00:56:04,724 ♪♪ 1142 00:56:09,275 --> 00:56:15,137 ♪♪ 1143 00:56:15,137 --> 00:56:21,172 ♪♪ 1144 00:56:21,172 --> 00:56:24,172 Jennifer: IT'S BEEN A FEW DAYS SINCE WE SAW DR. NOW, 1145 00:56:24,172 --> 00:56:27,344 AND HE GAVE US ONE MONTH TO LOSE 30 POUNDS, 1146 00:56:27,344 --> 00:56:30,379 AND IT'S BEEN REALLY HARD TO STICK TO OUR DIET, 1147 00:56:30,379 --> 00:56:32,448 BUT WE DIDN'T COME THIS FAR TO FAIL. 1148 00:56:34,793 --> 00:56:37,724 -HI, MOM. -HI, HOW ARE YOU? 1149 00:56:37,724 --> 00:56:39,724 FINE, HOW ARE YOU? 1150 00:56:39,724 --> 00:56:41,862 OKAY. 1151 00:56:41,862 --> 00:56:43,965 I'M HUNGRY. 1152 00:56:43,965 --> 00:56:45,758 OBVIOUSLY. YOU'RE ALWAYS HUNGRY. 1153 00:56:45,758 --> 00:56:49,206 I BOUGHT SOME STEAK, AND I'M GONNA TRY AND HELP YOU COOK. 1154 00:56:49,206 --> 00:56:50,586 OH! 1155 00:56:50,586 --> 00:56:53,103 YOU WANT TO DO THOSE TACO BOATS LIKE WE DID YESTERDAY? 1156 00:56:53,103 --> 00:56:54,275 SOUNDS HARD. 1157 00:56:54,275 --> 00:56:56,034 YOU NEED TO LEARN. YEAH. 1158 00:56:56,034 --> 00:56:58,206 I GUESS IT'S TIME I DON'T MICROWAVE EVERYTHING. 1159 00:56:58,206 --> 00:56:59,758 YEAH. 1160 00:56:59,758 --> 00:57:02,931 -ALL RIGHT, I'M HUNGRY. -YEAH, LET'S GO. 1161 00:57:02,931 --> 00:57:05,758 THIS JOURNEY ISN'T JUST ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT. 1162 00:57:05,758 --> 00:57:08,413 IT'S ABOUT ME LEARNING TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF 1163 00:57:08,413 --> 00:57:11,689 SO THAT MARISSA DOESN'T HAVE TO DO IT ANYMORE. 1164 00:57:11,689 --> 00:57:15,103 I FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HOW MUCH OF HER LIFE I'VE STOLEN, 1165 00:57:15,103 --> 00:57:17,931 AND I DON'T WANT TO DO IT ANYMORE. 1166 00:57:17,931 --> 00:57:20,448 THERE'S SO MUCH THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO, 1167 00:57:20,448 --> 00:57:22,620 BUT I WANT TO LEARN. 1168 00:57:22,620 --> 00:57:25,551 OKAY, TURN THAT ON MEDIUM. 1169 00:57:26,758 --> 00:57:29,103 MEDIUM. 1170 00:57:29,103 --> 00:57:31,862 NOW YOU'RE GOING TO SEASON YOUR MEAT WITH WHATEVER. 1171 00:57:31,862 --> 00:57:35,517 THEN YOU PUT THIS IN HERE, 1172 00:57:35,517 --> 00:57:38,275 AND YOU LET IT BROWN, 1173 00:57:38,275 --> 00:57:40,379 AND WHEN THAT'S BROWN, YOU FLIP IT OVER. 1174 00:57:42,551 --> 00:57:45,172 Marissa: IT AMAZES ME SOMETIMES ABOUT HOW LITTLE MY MOM 1175 00:57:45,172 --> 00:57:47,655 KNOWS ABOUT BASIC THINGS, 1176 00:57:47,655 --> 00:57:49,448 BUT SHE WANTS TO GET BETTER, 1177 00:57:49,448 --> 00:57:52,586 AND IF SHE WANTS TO, I'LL HELP HER, 1178 00:57:52,586 --> 00:57:56,137 AND EVEN THOUGH IT SHOULD BE HER RESPONSIBILITY TO LOSE WEIGHT, 1179 00:57:56,137 --> 00:57:58,379 I FEEL GUILTY THAT I HAVEN'T TAKEN ALL OF THIS 1180 00:57:58,379 --> 00:58:01,862 AS SERIOUSLY AS I SHOULD HAVE. 1181 00:58:01,862 --> 00:58:03,931 MAYBE IF I WOULD HAVE TRIED HARDER, 1182 00:58:03,931 --> 00:58:05,827 MY MOM WOULD HAVE MET HER GOAL LAST TIME 1183 00:58:05,827 --> 00:58:08,689 AND GOT APPROVED FOR SURGERY, 1184 00:58:08,689 --> 00:58:10,758 AND IF WE DON'T MEET THE GOAL AT OUR NEXT APPOINTMENT, 1185 00:58:10,758 --> 00:58:13,413 DR. NOW IS GONNA SEPARATE US, 1186 00:58:13,413 --> 00:58:15,034 SO EVEN THOUGH I STILL GET ANNOYED 1187 00:58:15,034 --> 00:58:17,482 AT HOW MUCH I HAVE TO HELP MY MOM, 1188 00:58:17,482 --> 00:58:20,413 I GAVE UP MY LIFE BACK IN OREGON FOR THIS, 1189 00:58:20,413 --> 00:58:22,896 SO I BETTER MAKE THIS ALL COUNT. 1190 00:58:22,896 --> 00:58:26,000 OKAY, SO I TAKE THE LETTUCE, 1191 00:58:26,000 --> 00:58:28,275 AND I PUT THE SOUR CREAM ON IT, 1192 00:58:28,275 --> 00:58:30,620 AND I SPREAD THE GUACAMOLE ON IT, 1193 00:58:30,620 --> 00:58:32,862 AND THEN YOU PUT YOUR PICO, 1194 00:58:32,862 --> 00:58:35,137 AND THEN YOU PUT YOUR CHEESE, AND THEN YOU PUT YOUR STEAK. 1195 00:58:35,137 --> 00:58:36,586 THAT'S NOT HARD. 1196 00:58:36,586 --> 00:58:39,103 NOPE. 1197 00:58:39,103 --> 00:58:41,000 THANKS FOR DOING THIS WITH ME. 1198 00:58:41,000 --> 00:58:42,310 YOU'RE WELCOME. 1199 00:58:44,172 --> 00:58:45,448 Jennifer: I WANT TO START TO BE THE MOM 1200 00:58:45,448 --> 00:58:48,551 THAT I NEVER WAS TO MARISSA GROWING UP, 1201 00:58:48,551 --> 00:58:51,827 LIKE I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING ALL THESE YEARS, 1202 00:58:51,827 --> 00:58:54,965 BUT RIGHT NOW, I FEEL LIKE I NEED HER MORE THAN EVER... 1203 00:58:54,965 --> 00:58:57,068 THERE YOU GO. THANK YOU. 1204 00:58:57,068 --> 00:59:01,724 ...ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I'M SEEING LESS AND LESS OF DAWAYNE LATELY, 1205 00:59:01,724 --> 00:59:03,793 AND I'M WORRIED THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG 1206 00:59:03,793 --> 00:59:05,689 AND THAT HE'S UP TO SOMETHING, 1207 00:59:05,689 --> 00:59:09,137 BUT I CAN'T GET DISTRACTED. 1208 00:59:09,137 --> 00:59:12,655 I'M HERE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1209 00:59:12,655 --> 00:59:13,793 I'M HERE TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1210 00:59:13,793 --> 00:59:19,068 ♪♪ 1211 00:59:19,068 --> 00:59:24,310 ♪♪ 1212 00:59:24,310 --> 00:59:28,137 I'VE BARELY SEEN DAWAYNE SINCE WE MOVED TO HOUSTON, 1213 00:59:28,137 --> 00:59:31,758 AND IT FEELS LIKE THINGS ARE STARTING TO FALL APART. 1214 00:59:31,758 --> 00:59:35,137 HE'S ALWAYS OUT CLAIMING HE'S WORKING. 1215 00:59:35,137 --> 00:59:36,551 I FINALLY CONFRONTED HIM ON IT, 1216 00:59:36,551 --> 00:59:39,793 AND HE'S CONFESSED THAT HE'S BEEN OUT GAMBLING. 1217 00:59:39,793 --> 00:59:42,344 HE PROMISED HE WOULD STOP, BUT I DON'T BELIEVE HIM. 1218 00:59:42,344 --> 00:59:43,344 THANK YOU, BABE. 1219 00:59:43,344 --> 00:59:45,000 ALL THE STRESS AND DRAMA WITH DAWAYNE 1220 00:59:45,000 --> 00:59:47,482 IS MAKING ME WANT TO EAT. 1221 00:59:47,482 --> 00:59:49,103 I HAVE ACCESS TO HIS BANK ACCOUNT, 1222 00:59:49,103 --> 00:59:52,310 AND I KNOW HE'S USING MONEY TO GAMBLE. 1223 00:59:52,310 --> 00:59:53,827 OH, MY GOD. 1224 00:59:53,827 --> 00:59:55,724 WHAT? WE GOT TO GO. 1225 00:59:55,724 --> 00:59:57,000 WE GOT TO GO GET HIM. 1226 00:59:57,000 --> 00:59:59,310 HE JUST TOOK OUT ANOTHER $100. 1227 00:59:59,310 --> 01:00:00,517 WE CAN'T GO GET HIM. 1228 01:00:00,517 --> 01:00:04,758 I FOUND OUT 'CAUSE I CAN LOG INTO HIS CARD, 1229 01:00:04,758 --> 01:00:07,551 WHICH HE SAYS HE HATES, WHICH I'M GLAD I HAVE. 1230 01:00:07,551 --> 01:00:09,655 BE A MAN, AND WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO CHECK 1231 01:00:09,655 --> 01:00:11,482 HOW MUCH YOU'RE SPENDING ALL THE TIME. 1232 01:00:11,482 --> 01:00:12,689 NO, THIS ONE DOESN'T SAY. 1233 01:00:12,689 --> 01:00:14,448 THIS IS WHY I SAY I'M THE MAN OF THE HOUSE. 1234 01:00:14,448 --> 01:00:16,137 LIKE [ BLEEP ] 1235 01:00:16,137 --> 01:00:18,931 ♪♪ 1236 01:00:18,931 --> 01:00:20,586 DON'T CRY. 1237 01:00:20,586 --> 01:00:21,689 DON'T CRY. 1238 01:00:23,931 --> 01:00:25,620 WHAT IS HE DOING? 1239 01:00:25,620 --> 01:00:27,413 DON'T CRY. IT'S NOT WORTH IT. 1240 01:00:27,413 --> 01:00:30,862 ♪♪ 1241 01:00:30,862 --> 01:00:34,482 Marissa: I'M SO TIRED OF HAVING TO DEAL WITH DAWAYNE. 1242 01:00:34,482 --> 01:00:39,206 HE'S PUT MY MOM THROUGH SO MUCH, AND THIS IS THE LAST THING 1243 01:00:39,206 --> 01:00:41,275 SHE NEED TO BE DEALING WITH RIGHT NOW. 1244 01:00:43,689 --> 01:00:45,931 I DOUBT IT. 1245 01:00:45,931 --> 01:00:49,655 THAT'S HIS NEW HIGH, HIS GAMBLING. 1246 01:00:49,655 --> 01:00:52,275 I'M JUST... 1247 01:00:52,275 --> 01:00:54,827 I'M SHOCKED, BUT I'M NOT SHOCKED. 1248 01:00:54,827 --> 01:00:56,827 NOW I JUST WANT TO CRY.CRY. 1249 01:00:59,172 --> 01:01:02,931 I'M RUNNING OUT OF TEARS. 1250 01:01:02,931 --> 01:01:06,896 I HATE THAT I HAVE TO BE THE RESPONSIBLE ONE. 1251 01:01:06,896 --> 01:01:10,793 I FEEL LIKE I NEVER GOT TO BE A KID. 1252 01:01:10,793 --> 01:01:13,344 I LOVE YOU. LOVE YOU, TOO. 1253 01:01:13,344 --> 01:01:16,344 ♪♪ 1254 01:01:16,344 --> 01:01:19,965 Jennifer: I'M REALLY ANGRY FOR MY DAUGHTER. 1255 01:01:19,965 --> 01:01:23,000 I'M TIRED OF TRUSTING HIM AND HIM JUST LETTING US DOWN. 1256 01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:26,000 ♪♪ 1257 01:01:26,000 --> 01:01:28,517 I DON'T WANT LIFE TO BE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. 1258 01:01:35,551 --> 01:01:42,689 ♪♪ 1259 01:01:42,689 --> 01:01:49,862 ♪♪ 1260 01:01:49,862 --> 01:01:51,793 Jennifer: WE'RE GOING TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE TODAY 1261 01:01:51,793 --> 01:01:53,517 FOR OUR WEIGH-IN. 1262 01:01:53,517 --> 01:01:56,172 THINGS ARE STILL ROCKY BETWEEN ME AND DAWAYNE, 1263 01:01:56,172 --> 01:01:59,172 BUT I STAYED STRONG AND DIDN'T CHEAT ON MY DIET. 1264 01:02:01,655 --> 01:02:04,034 DR. NOW SAID HE WOULD SEPARATE ME AND MARISSA 1265 01:02:04,034 --> 01:02:07,172 IF WE DON'T LOSE 30 POUNDS IN A MONTH. 1266 01:02:07,172 --> 01:02:09,034 JENNIFER AND MARISSA? 1267 01:02:09,034 --> 01:02:11,172 MARISSA AND I ARE IN THIS TOGETHER, 1268 01:02:11,172 --> 01:02:14,517 AND I HAVE TO HIT 533 AT LEAST, 1269 01:02:14,517 --> 01:02:17,413 SO I REALLY HOPE I MET THE GOAL AND THAT I GET APPROVED TODAY. 1270 01:02:17,413 --> 01:02:24,793 ♪♪ 1271 01:02:24,793 --> 01:02:28,551 DR. NOW GAVE ME A GOAL, AND I HIT IT EXACTLY, 1272 01:02:28,551 --> 01:02:31,827 BUT I WON'T BE HAPPY 'TIL I SEE MARISSA HIT HER GOAL, TOO. 1273 01:02:33,689 --> 01:02:35,310 Marissa: SO, THIS IS IT. 1274 01:02:35,310 --> 01:02:39,413 TO MEET HIS GOAL, I HAVE TO HIT AT LEAST 518 OR LOWER. 1275 01:02:39,413 --> 01:02:47,413 ♪♪ 1276 01:02:47,413 --> 01:02:50,034 IT FEELS AMAZING TO FINALLY MEET A GOAL. 1277 01:02:52,172 --> 01:02:55,172 TO FINALLY GET A HANDLE ON THE DIET AND MY WEIGHT 1278 01:02:55,172 --> 01:02:56,758 IS WONDERFUL. 1279 01:02:59,172 --> 01:03:01,862 SO, HOPEFULLY, DR. NOW IS AS HAPPY AS WE ARE. 1280 01:03:01,862 --> 01:03:04,724 ♪♪ 1281 01:03:04,724 --> 01:03:06,758 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 1282 01:03:06,758 --> 01:03:09,206 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1283 01:03:09,206 --> 01:03:10,862 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M GOOD. OKAY. 1284 01:03:10,862 --> 01:03:13,000 THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER WITH YOU TWO. 1285 01:03:13,000 --> 01:03:14,793 SO, WHO'S FIRST? 1286 01:03:14,793 --> 01:03:16,310 I'LL GO FIRST TODAY. 1287 01:03:16,310 --> 01:03:18,586 YOU GO FIRST, MARISSA. 1288 01:03:18,586 --> 01:03:21,241 OKAY, YOU'RE DOWN TO 506 1289 01:03:21,241 --> 01:03:24,655 WITH WEIGHT LOSS OF 42 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH. 1290 01:03:24,655 --> 01:03:25,793 MM-HMM. 1291 01:03:25,793 --> 01:03:27,724 SO, YOU'RE FINALLY DOING WHAT YOU NEED 1292 01:03:27,724 --> 01:03:30,482 AND TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY. -OKAY. 1293 01:03:30,482 --> 01:03:32,275 AND WITH HOW WELL YOU DID, 1294 01:03:32,275 --> 01:03:34,724 I THINK YOU'RE READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1295 01:03:34,724 --> 01:03:37,379 -OKAY. -SO, I'M APPROVING YOU TODAY. 1296 01:03:37,379 --> 01:03:40,586 HOW DOES THAT SOUND? -THAT SOUNDS AWESOME. 1297 01:03:40,586 --> 01:03:42,793 -CONGRATULATIONS. -YAY! 1298 01:03:42,793 --> 01:03:44,034 YOU'RE SO WEIRD. 1299 01:03:44,034 --> 01:03:48,551 NOW, MOM, YOU LOST EXACTLY 30 POUNDS OVER LAST MONTH, 1300 01:03:48,551 --> 01:03:53,275 AND YOU'RE DOWN TO 533, SO YOU'RE BACK ON TRACK TODAY. 1301 01:03:53,275 --> 01:03:57,137 SO I'M GONNA APPROVE YOU, TOO, FOR THE SURGERY, AS WELL. 1302 01:03:57,137 --> 01:03:59,310 -THANK YOU, DR. NOW. -OKAY. 1303 01:03:59,310 --> 01:04:02,793 SO, I'M GONNA SET YOU BOTH TO THE SAME DAY. 1304 01:04:02,793 --> 01:04:04,000 -OKAY. -ON THE SAME DAY? 1305 01:04:04,000 --> 01:04:05,000 -MM-HMM. -OKAY. 1306 01:04:05,000 --> 01:04:07,758 -SO WHO WANTS TO BE FIRST? -I DO. 1307 01:04:07,758 --> 01:04:09,655 ALL RIGHT.[ BOTH LAUGH ] 1308 01:04:09,655 --> 01:04:10,862 -DO YOU WANT TO BE FIRST? -NO, I DON'T CARE. 1309 01:04:10,862 --> 01:04:11,827 THAT'S FINE.YOU CAN BE FIRST. 1310 01:04:11,827 --> 01:04:13,000 NO, THAT'S FINE. THAT'S FINE. 1311 01:04:13,000 --> 01:04:14,862 ALL RIGHT, I'M PROUD OF YOU BOTH 1312 01:04:14,862 --> 01:04:18,724 FOR STARTING TO BREAK YOUR UNHEALTHY DYNAMIC, 1313 01:04:18,724 --> 01:04:21,448 BUT THIS SURGERY IS JUST A TOOL, 1314 01:04:21,448 --> 01:04:23,896 AND YOU'RE GOING TO NEED ADDITIONAL HELP 1315 01:04:23,896 --> 01:04:26,103 TO DO THIS FOR THE LONG RUN. 1316 01:04:26,103 --> 01:04:27,379 OKAY. 1317 01:04:27,379 --> 01:04:30,689 SO AS SOON AS YOU BOTH RECOVER FROM WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1318 01:04:30,689 --> 01:04:33,068 YOU'RE GOING TO START THERAPY TOGETHER 1319 01:04:33,068 --> 01:04:36,827 TO CONTINUE TO WORK ON CREATING A HEALTHY DYNAMIC 1320 01:04:36,827 --> 01:04:39,793 BETWEEN YOU TWO, OKAY? 1321 01:04:39,793 --> 01:04:43,206 ALL RIGHT. I'M GOING TO SCHEDULE BOTH YOUR SURGERIES 1322 01:04:43,206 --> 01:04:46,034 FOR ONE MONTH FROM NOW. -OKAY. 1323 01:04:46,034 --> 01:04:48,068 AND WHAT I WANT YOU BOTH TO DO 1324 01:04:48,068 --> 01:04:51,620 IS TO KEEP AT IT AND LOSE ANOTHER 30 POUNDS. 1325 01:04:51,620 --> 01:04:54,655 -OKAY. -AND IF EITHER OF YOU DON'T, 1326 01:04:54,655 --> 01:04:57,103 THEN I WILL CANCEL BOTH OF YOUR SURGERIES, 1327 01:04:57,103 --> 01:04:59,931 AND WE'LL BE BACK TO THE DRAWING BOARD WITH YOU. 1328 01:04:59,931 --> 01:05:01,206 OKAY. 1329 01:05:01,206 --> 01:05:04,517 SO, KEEP ON TRACK, AND I WILL SEE YOU BOTH IN A MONTH. 1330 01:05:04,517 --> 01:05:05,896 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1331 01:05:05,896 --> 01:05:07,379 -THANK YOU SO MUCH. -THANK YOU. 1332 01:05:07,379 --> 01:05:11,689 ♪♪ 1333 01:05:11,689 --> 01:05:14,724 I AM VERY ENCOURAGED THAT BOTH JENNIFER AND MARISSA 1334 01:05:14,724 --> 01:05:16,896 DID WELL AND MET THEIR GOALS. 1335 01:05:16,896 --> 01:05:19,931 THIS SHOWS ME THEY HAVE TAKEN POSITIVE STEPS 1336 01:05:19,931 --> 01:05:22,551 TO CHANGE THEIR DYNAMIC, BUT THEY STILL HAVE 1337 01:05:22,551 --> 01:05:25,068 A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WORK TO DO 1338 01:05:25,068 --> 01:05:28,724 BECAUSE THEY HAVE A LONG HISTORY OF ISSUES BETWEEN THEM 1339 01:05:28,724 --> 01:05:29,862 AND THAT HAS TO BE ADDRESSED 1340 01:05:29,862 --> 01:05:32,068 THAT ONLY THERAPY WILL HELP THEM WITH. 1341 01:05:32,068 --> 01:05:35,448 SO, WE NEED TO START AS SOON AS POSSIBLE AFTER SURGERY 1342 01:05:35,448 --> 01:05:37,896 BECAUSE IT WILL ONLY BE A MATTER OF TIME 1343 01:05:37,896 --> 01:05:41,758 BEFORE THEY START GOING BACK TO THEIR OLD WAYS, 1344 01:05:41,758 --> 01:05:46,275 AND IF THAT HAPPENS, WE LIKELY WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP THEM. 1345 01:05:46,275 --> 01:05:49,344 Jennifer: I CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW. 1346 01:05:49,344 --> 01:05:50,827 MY DAUGHTER AND I ARE BOTH FINALLY 1347 01:05:50,827 --> 01:05:53,551 TURNING OUR LIVES AROUND. 1348 01:05:53,551 --> 01:05:56,034 Marissa: NOW THIS IS ALL BECOMING REAL. 1349 01:05:56,034 --> 01:05:58,034 IT'S JUST BEEN A DREAM ALL THIS TIME, 1350 01:05:58,034 --> 01:06:00,172 AND NOW IT'S BECOMING A REALITY. 1351 01:06:00,172 --> 01:06:10,137 ♪♪ 1352 01:06:10,137 --> 01:06:20,068 ♪♪ 1353 01:06:20,068 --> 01:06:21,965 Jennifer: I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR THIS DAY, 1354 01:06:21,965 --> 01:06:24,241 BUT NOW THAT IT'S HERE, I'M TERRIFIED. 1355 01:06:24,241 --> 01:06:27,137 ♪♪ 1356 01:06:27,137 --> 01:06:30,172 HI. -HI, MOMMY. 1357 01:06:30,172 --> 01:06:32,931 AND I HATE THE FACT THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE MARISSA 1358 01:06:32,931 --> 01:06:36,103 GOING IN FOR HER SURGERY BECAUSE I'M GOING FIRST, 1359 01:06:36,103 --> 01:06:40,000 AND THEN MARISSA IS GOING RIGHT AFTER ME. 1360 01:06:40,000 --> 01:06:42,551 -YOU READY? -YEAH. 1361 01:06:42,551 --> 01:06:45,034 COME GIVE ME A HUG. 1362 01:06:45,758 --> 01:06:47,275 I LOVE YOU, TOO. 1363 01:06:47,275 --> 01:06:53,724 ♪♪ 1364 01:06:53,724 --> 01:06:55,103 BYE, GUYS. I LOVE YOU. -BYE. I LOVE YOU, MOMMY. 1365 01:06:55,103 --> 01:06:56,827 SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE, BABY. 1366 01:06:56,827 --> 01:06:59,965 ♪♪ 1367 01:06:59,965 --> 01:07:04,862 I AM NERVOUS BECAUSE I'VE HAD SURGERY COMPLICATIONS BEFORE 1368 01:07:04,862 --> 01:07:09,241 WHEN I ALMOST DIED HAVING MY GALL BLADDER REMOVED, 1369 01:07:09,241 --> 01:07:12,620 SO I KNOW HOW DANGEROUS SURGERY CAN BE, 1370 01:07:12,620 --> 01:07:16,275 BUT THIS IS MY ONLY OPTION. 1371 01:07:16,275 --> 01:07:19,172 SO, I REALLY NEED THE SURGERY TO MOVE FORWARD IN MY LIFE. 1372 01:07:19,172 --> 01:07:24,172 ♪♪ 1373 01:07:24,172 --> 01:07:29,103 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY WE ARE DOING A GASTRIC SLEEVE PROCEDURE ON JENNIFER. 1374 01:07:29,103 --> 01:07:33,344 WE WEIGHED BOTH JENNIFER AND MARISSA WHEN THEY CHECKED IN, 1375 01:07:33,344 --> 01:07:36,965 AND THEY BOTH HAVE HIT THEIR GOAL WEIGHT AGAIN. 1376 01:07:36,965 --> 01:07:39,275 JENNIFER HAS LOST 34 POUNDS, 1377 01:07:39,275 --> 01:07:42,896 AND MARISSA HAS LOST 32 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH. 1378 01:07:45,068 --> 01:07:49,137 ON TOP OF THAT, ALL THEIR MEDICAL TESTS LOOK GOOD. 1379 01:07:49,137 --> 01:07:52,000 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT. THE ROOM LIGHT OFF. 1380 01:07:52,000 --> 01:07:54,758 SO, THERE IS NO REASON NOT TO MOVE AHEAD 1381 01:07:54,758 --> 01:07:56,793 WITH THEIR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERIES TODAY. 1382 01:07:56,793 --> 01:07:59,793 ♪♪ 1383 01:07:59,793 --> 01:08:02,448 BUT JENNIFER IS STILL VERY HIGH-RISK, 1384 01:08:02,448 --> 01:08:04,517 AND IT'S GOING TO BE DIFFICULT FOR US 1385 01:08:04,517 --> 01:08:07,000 TO OPERATE ON HER BECAUSE OF HER SIZE. 1386 01:08:13,482 --> 01:08:17,068 I AM ALSO CONCERNED THAT SHE MAY HAVE SOME SCAR TISSUE 1387 01:08:17,068 --> 01:08:20,310 FROM HER PREVIOUS SURGERY THAT COULD HINDER US 1388 01:08:20,310 --> 01:08:23,655 AND SLOW US DOWN, AND THAT COULD BE AN ISSUE 1389 01:08:23,655 --> 01:08:28,068 THAT PREVENTS US FROM BEING ABLE TO COMPLETE THE SURGERY, 1390 01:08:28,068 --> 01:08:31,206 BUT HOPEFULLY, THAT WON'T BE THE CASE. 1391 01:08:31,206 --> 01:08:33,965 THIS SURGERY WILL BE A TOOL THAT GIVES JENNIFER 1392 01:08:33,965 --> 01:08:36,965 THE HELP SHE NEEDS TO STAY ON TRACK 1393 01:08:36,965 --> 01:08:40,586 AS SHE STARTS TO DEAL WITH HER EMOTIONAL AND CORE ISSUES 1394 01:08:40,586 --> 01:08:43,793 THAT HAVE NOT ONLY BEEN LEADING HER TO EAT 1395 01:08:43,793 --> 01:08:46,517 BUT THAT HAVE LED TO THE DYSFUNCTIONAL DYNAMIC 1396 01:08:46,517 --> 01:08:48,241 BETWEEN HER AND HER DAUGHTER. 1397 01:08:48,241 --> 01:08:51,448 ♪♪ 1398 01:08:51,448 --> 01:08:54,482 Marissa: I'M GLAD I GOT TO SEE MY MOM AND TELL HER I LOVED HER 1399 01:08:54,482 --> 01:08:58,137 'CAUSE I'M PRETTY NERVOUS ABOUT MY MOM BEING IN SURGERY. 1400 01:08:58,137 --> 01:09:00,275 THE LAST TIME MY MOM HAD SURGERY, SHE ALMOST DIED, 1401 01:09:00,275 --> 01:09:02,655 SO IT'S PRETTY NERVE-WRACKING. 1402 01:09:02,655 --> 01:09:09,586 ♪♪ 1403 01:09:09,586 --> 01:09:11,965 Dr. Nowzaradan: THE SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY IS AN OPERATION 1404 01:09:11,965 --> 01:09:15,793 THAT WE REMOVE 80% TO 90% OF THE STOMACH 1405 01:09:15,793 --> 01:09:18,310 AND WE LEAVE A LONG, SKINNY TUBE 1406 01:09:18,310 --> 01:09:21,275 THAT CONNECTS THE ESOPHAGUS TO THE SMALL INTESTINE. 1407 01:09:21,275 --> 01:09:24,344 ♪♪ 1408 01:09:24,344 --> 01:09:27,379 SO THIS SURGERY, FOR JENNIFER, IS GONNA HELP HER 1409 01:09:27,379 --> 01:09:30,827 TO BE ABLE TO ADHERE TO HER VERY HEALTHY EATING HABIT 1410 01:09:30,827 --> 01:09:34,206 AND GET FULL REAL QUICK AND BE ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1411 01:09:34,206 --> 01:09:36,413 OKAY. CAN YOU TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON? 1412 01:09:36,413 --> 01:09:42,551 ♪♪ 1413 01:09:42,551 --> 01:09:45,862 OKAY. ALL FINISHED. 1414 01:09:45,862 --> 01:09:49,758 ALL RIGHT, JENNIFER'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1415 01:09:49,758 --> 01:09:52,241 WE HAD A COUPLE ISSUES WITH THE SCAR TISSUE 1416 01:09:52,241 --> 01:09:54,206 AND TAKING DOWN A WALL, 1417 01:09:54,206 --> 01:09:56,689 BUT WE WERE ABLE TO WORK AROUND THEM, 1418 01:09:56,689 --> 01:09:59,827 SO WE WILL GET HER TO RECOVERY SO SHE CAN REST, 1419 01:09:59,827 --> 01:10:02,689 AND THEN WE'LL START HER DAUGHTER'S PROCEDURE, 1420 01:10:02,689 --> 01:10:06,551 BUT JENNIFER SHOULD BE ABLE TO GO HOME IN A FEW DAYS, 1421 01:10:06,551 --> 01:10:10,758 AND SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 35 POUNDS THIS FIRST MONTH 1422 01:10:10,758 --> 01:10:12,965 AND 20 POUNDS EACH MONTH AFTER THAT 1423 01:10:12,965 --> 01:10:16,137 UNTIL SHE GETS CLOSE TO HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1424 01:10:16,137 --> 01:10:18,724 BUT LONG TERM, THAT WILL ALL DEPEND 1425 01:10:18,724 --> 01:10:22,517 ON HOW COMMITTED SHE AND MARISSA ARE TO THERAPY. 1426 01:10:22,517 --> 01:10:26,620 BUT NOW THAT WE'VE FINISHED WITH JENNIFER, IT IS MARISSA'S TURN, 1427 01:10:26,620 --> 01:10:29,482 BUT HOPEFULLY THERE ARE NO ISSUES TO PREVENT US 1428 01:10:29,482 --> 01:10:31,931 FROM DOING THIS OPERATION TODAY 1429 01:10:31,931 --> 01:10:34,586 BECAUSE IT WON'T BE GOOD WITH THEIR CURRENT DYNAMIC 1430 01:10:34,586 --> 01:10:38,275 FOR ONE OF THEM TO HAVE SURGERY TO RESTRAIN THEIR EATING 1431 01:10:38,275 --> 01:10:40,379 WHILE THE OTHER ONE DOESN'T. 1432 01:10:40,379 --> 01:10:43,137 IT WILL LEAD TO AN ENABLING SITUATION 1433 01:10:43,137 --> 01:10:45,758 THAT WOULD LIKELY START TO SABOTAGE JENNIFER 1434 01:10:45,758 --> 01:10:47,413 WITH HER PROGRESS. 1435 01:10:47,413 --> 01:10:51,000 SO HOPEFULLY, WE WONT ENCOUNTER ANYTHING THAT WILL STOP US. 1436 01:10:58,620 --> 01:11:04,103 ♪♪ 1437 01:11:04,103 --> 01:11:09,551 ♪♪ 1438 01:11:09,551 --> 01:11:12,137 Marissa: I'M REALLY NERVOUS RIGHT NOW. 1439 01:11:12,137 --> 01:11:15,413 I KNOW THERE'S LOTS OF RISKS BECAUSE I'M HEAVY, 1440 01:11:15,413 --> 01:11:19,862 BUT THOSE RISKS AREN'T AS BAD AS BEING OBESE, 1441 01:11:19,862 --> 01:11:23,241 BUT I KNOW MY MOM JUST WENT THROUGH THIS, 1442 01:11:23,241 --> 01:11:26,206 AND IF MY MOM CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT. 1443 01:11:26,206 --> 01:11:30,137 ♪♪ 1444 01:11:30,137 --> 01:11:31,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: RIGHT NOW, WE'RE ABOUT TO PERFORM 1445 01:11:31,793 --> 01:11:34,793 A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON MARISSA. 1446 01:11:34,793 --> 01:11:39,827 WE JUST COMPLETED THIS SAME OPERATION ON HER MOTHER, 1447 01:11:39,827 --> 01:11:43,241 AND EVEN THOUGH HER WEIGHT IS NOT AS HIGH AS HER MOTHER'S, 1448 01:11:43,241 --> 01:11:45,655 SHE'S STILL SUPER MORBIDLY OBESE, 1449 01:11:45,655 --> 01:11:47,689 MAKING HER JUST AS HIGH-RISK. 1450 01:11:47,689 --> 01:11:50,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT, ROOM LIGHT OFF. 1451 01:11:50,482 --> 01:11:54,448 SO, IF WE ENCOUNTER ANY SIGNIFICANT ISSUES WITH HER, 1452 01:11:54,448 --> 01:11:56,586 WE WILL HAVE TO STOP THE PROCEDURE... 1453 01:12:01,689 --> 01:12:04,068 ...AND IT WILL BE EXTREMELY UNFORTUNATE 1454 01:12:04,068 --> 01:12:06,827 BECAUSE BOTH OF THEM NEED TO MAKE THIS TRANSITION 1455 01:12:06,827 --> 01:12:09,758 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY AT THE SAME TIME 1456 01:12:09,758 --> 01:12:11,827 BECAUSE WITH THEIR DYNAMIC, 1457 01:12:11,827 --> 01:12:14,137 IF ONE OF THEM STARTS TO STRUGGLE, 1458 01:12:14,137 --> 01:12:16,896 THEN THAT WILL LEAD TO THE OTHER STRUGGLING. 1459 01:12:16,896 --> 01:12:20,000 SO, BY DOING THESE SURGERIES AT THE SAME TIME, 1460 01:12:20,000 --> 01:12:21,793 WE ARE LOOKING TO PREVENT THAT, 1461 01:12:21,793 --> 01:12:25,517 AND HOPEFULLY, THAT IS WHAT WE'LL BE ABLE TO DO. 1462 01:12:25,517 --> 01:12:29,724 WE ARE GOOD, AND LET'S GRADUALLY TAKE IT OUT. 1463 01:12:29,724 --> 01:12:32,275 MARISSA'S STOMACH ALMOST 12-INCHES LONG. 1464 01:12:32,275 --> 01:12:34,655 IT'S A VERY LONG STOMACH. 1465 01:12:34,655 --> 01:12:36,758 ALL RIGHT. ROOM LIGHT ON. 1466 01:12:36,758 --> 01:12:40,000 LET'S CLOSE IT UP. 1467 01:12:40,000 --> 01:12:41,862 OKAY. ALL FINISHED. 1468 01:12:44,172 --> 01:12:47,448 MARISSA'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1469 01:12:47,448 --> 01:12:49,448 SHE HAD THE SLEEVE, AND WE'RE GONNA GET HER 1470 01:12:49,448 --> 01:12:51,758 TO THE RECOVERY ROOM RIGHT NOW, 1471 01:12:51,758 --> 01:12:53,620 AND MARISSA SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 1472 01:12:53,620 --> 01:12:56,000 35 POUNDS THIS NEXT MONTH 1473 01:12:56,000 --> 01:12:58,896 AND THEN 20 TO 25 POUNDS THE FOLLOWING MONTH 1474 01:12:58,896 --> 01:13:02,172 UNTIL SHE GET CLOSE TO HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1475 01:13:02,172 --> 01:13:05,310 AND ONCE JENNIFER AND MARISSA FULLY RECOVER, 1476 01:13:05,310 --> 01:13:08,137 THEN IT'S EXTREMELY IMPORTANT THAT THEY START GOING 1477 01:13:08,137 --> 01:13:10,655 TO PSYCHOTHERAPY TOGETHER IMMEDIATELY 1478 01:13:10,655 --> 01:13:14,413 BECAUSE NOW FOOD IS NO LONGER GOING TO BE SOMETHING 1479 01:13:14,413 --> 01:13:16,862 EITHER OF THEM CAN RUN TO. 1480 01:13:16,862 --> 01:13:20,448 SO, ALL THE EMOTIONS THAT THEY HAVE BEEN AVOIDING FOR YEARS 1481 01:13:20,448 --> 01:13:22,965 ARE GOING TO COME TO THE SURFACE. 1482 01:13:22,965 --> 01:13:25,379 SO, WE NEED TO START THE PROCESS OF ADDRESSING 1483 01:13:25,379 --> 01:13:28,724 THE CORE ISSUES THEY HAVE INDIVIDUALLY AND TOGETHER 1484 01:13:28,724 --> 01:13:31,724 BEFORE ONE OF THEM STARTS TO STRUGGLE, 1485 01:13:31,724 --> 01:13:34,655 AND THEN BOTH OF THEM GO OFF THE RAILS 1486 01:13:34,655 --> 01:13:37,068 BECAUSE THEY COULD END UP GAINING AGAIN, 1487 01:13:37,068 --> 01:13:40,965 AND THEN THEY WILL QUICKLY BE RIGHT BACK WHERE THEY STARTED. 1488 01:13:40,965 --> 01:13:45,310 SO ADDRESSING THE DYNAMIC BETWEEN THEM HAS BEEN KEY 1489 01:13:45,310 --> 01:13:49,034 AND STILL IS THE BIGGEST ISSUE WE NEED TO ADDRESS FOR THEM 1490 01:13:49,034 --> 01:13:51,482 TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG RUN. 1491 01:13:51,482 --> 01:13:58,068 ♪♪ 1492 01:13:58,068 --> 01:14:04,724 ♪♪ 1493 01:14:04,724 --> 01:14:09,103 Jennifer: IT'S BEEN A FEW WEEKS SINCE MARISSA AND I HAD SURGERY. 1494 01:14:09,103 --> 01:14:12,068 DR. NOW TOLD US WE NEEDED TO START THERAPY, 1495 01:14:12,068 --> 01:14:14,000 SO WE HAVE OUR FIRST APPOINTMENT TODAY. 1496 01:14:14,000 --> 01:14:17,310 ♪♪ 1497 01:14:17,310 --> 01:14:20,137 Marissa: MY MOM AND I HAVE A LOT OF ISSUES. 1498 01:14:20,137 --> 01:14:24,517 WE BOTH KNOW IT, AND WE'VE BEEN FIGHTING ABOUT IT FOR YEARS, 1499 01:14:24,517 --> 01:14:26,034 BUT THAT HASN'T HELPED US. 1500 01:14:26,034 --> 01:14:29,413 ♪♪ 1501 01:14:29,413 --> 01:14:31,275 MAYBE TALKING TO SOMEBODY WILL HELP. 1502 01:14:33,655 --> 01:14:36,344 I HOPE IT DOES 1503 01:14:36,344 --> 01:14:40,206 BECAUSE WE DEFINITELY NEED IT. 1504 01:14:40,206 --> 01:14:42,724 SO HOPEFULLY THIS WILL HELP US COMMUNICATE 1505 01:14:42,724 --> 01:14:44,724 AND NOT ARGUE SO MUCH. 1506 01:14:44,724 --> 01:14:53,413 ♪♪ 1507 01:14:53,413 --> 01:14:55,517 -WELCOME, I'M RACHEL. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 1508 01:14:55,517 --> 01:14:57,034 -I'M JENNIFER. -JENNIFER, MARISSA. 1509 01:14:57,034 --> 01:14:58,655 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU BOTH. 1510 01:14:58,655 --> 01:15:01,965 COME ON IN. -OKAY. 1511 01:15:01,965 --> 01:15:03,896 Rachel: OKAY, SO WHY DON'T Y'ALL BOTH GO AHEAD 1512 01:15:03,896 --> 01:15:04,931 AND HAVE A SEAT ON THE SOFA. 1513 01:15:04,931 --> 01:15:06,068 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1514 01:15:06,068 --> 01:15:08,793 ♪♪ 1515 01:15:08,793 --> 01:15:11,000 -OKAY, WELL, WELCOME. -THANK YOU. 1516 01:15:11,000 --> 01:15:13,379 JENNIFER, WHAT DO YOU FEEL BROUGHT YOU HERE 1517 01:15:13,379 --> 01:15:15,448 TO WHERE YOU ARE TODAY? 1518 01:15:15,448 --> 01:15:17,551 -LIKE, WHAT DO YOU -- I MEAN -- -WHEN DID YOU FIRST FEEL 1519 01:15:17,551 --> 01:15:19,965 THAT YOU WERE COPING USING FOOD? 1520 01:15:19,965 --> 01:15:21,172 WHEN DID THAT START? 1521 01:15:21,172 --> 01:15:24,344 I THINK, PROBABLY, AROUND FIVE. 1522 01:15:24,344 --> 01:15:25,413 -FIVE? -YEAH. 1523 01:15:25,413 --> 01:15:26,758 -YEAH. -MY MOM HAD GOT WITH 1524 01:15:26,758 --> 01:15:28,103 MY SIBLINGS' FATHER, 1525 01:15:28,103 --> 01:15:30,689 AND HE WAS JUST REALLY MEAN AND ABUSIVE, 1526 01:15:30,689 --> 01:15:33,344 EVERY TYPE OF ABUSE, SO... -EVERY TYPE OF ABUSE. 1527 01:15:33,344 --> 01:15:34,620 SEXUALLY? -MM-HMM. 1528 01:15:34,620 --> 01:15:36,655 AND IT JUST WENT ON FOR YEARS AFTER THAT. 1529 01:15:36,655 --> 01:15:38,275 AND THAT'S KIND OF WHERE IT STARTED... 1530 01:15:38,275 --> 01:15:39,413 YEAH. 1531 01:15:39,413 --> 01:15:40,896 ...'CAUSE YOU WERE FEELING SO MUCH PAIN? 1532 01:15:40,896 --> 01:15:43,620 AND FOOD BECAME A WAY TO NUMB THE PAIN? 1533 01:15:43,620 --> 01:15:44,793 RIGHT. 1534 01:15:44,793 --> 01:15:46,689 IS THAT KIND OF THE RIGHT WORD FOR IT? 1535 01:15:46,689 --> 01:15:50,344 DO YOU FEEL LIKE IT WAS A WAY TO NUMB FROM ALL OF THAT PAIN? 1536 01:15:50,344 --> 01:15:53,517 ♪♪ 1537 01:15:53,517 --> 01:15:55,896 ALL OF A SUDDEN -- I DON'T KNOW. 1538 01:15:55,896 --> 01:15:58,689 Jennifer: I FEEL LIKE YOU'RE NOT BEING OPEN, AND YOU NEED TO, 1539 01:15:58,689 --> 01:16:00,275 SO STOP IT, AND JUST DO IT. 1540 01:16:00,275 --> 01:16:01,448 NO. YES. 1541 01:16:01,448 --> 01:16:02,724 NO. -IT FEELS LIKE 1542 01:16:02,724 --> 01:16:05,034 THERE'S SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE FEELING SCARED OF. 1543 01:16:05,034 --> 01:16:07,413 I TOTALLY GET IT. YOU WERE JUST A LITTLE KID, 1544 01:16:07,413 --> 01:16:08,931 AND YOU DESERVED PROTECTION, 1545 01:16:08,931 --> 01:16:10,448 AND YOU REALLY DIDN'T HAVE IT. 1546 01:16:10,448 --> 01:16:13,448 I ALWAYS FELT LIKE IT'S MY FAULT. 1547 01:16:13,448 --> 01:16:16,620 THAT IS A HUGE BURDEN THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO CARRY. 1548 01:16:16,620 --> 01:16:19,931 I JUST -- I DON'T WANT TO TALK ANYMORE. 1549 01:16:19,931 --> 01:16:22,206 IT'S KIND OF OVERWHELMING. 1550 01:16:22,206 --> 01:16:23,862 WE CAN TAKE A PAUSE AND SWITCH GEARS. 1551 01:16:23,862 --> 01:16:25,379 THAT'S OKAY. -YEAH. 1552 01:16:25,379 --> 01:16:27,793 MARISSA, HOW DID THINGS COME ABOUT FOR YOU? 1553 01:16:27,793 --> 01:16:30,620 I'VE TAKEN CARE OF MY MOM SINCE I WAS LITTLE. 1554 01:16:30,620 --> 01:16:33,137 MY REAL DAD USED TO BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF HER, 1555 01:16:33,137 --> 01:16:36,551 AND HE WOULD MAKE ME SIT ON THE COUCH AND WATCH IT. 1556 01:16:36,551 --> 01:16:39,000 THAT MUST HAVE BEEN PRETTY AWFUL FOR YOU. 1557 01:16:39,000 --> 01:16:42,758 I THINK I'VE JUST SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE TRYING TO PROTECT HER. 1558 01:16:42,758 --> 01:16:44,551 RIGHT. 1559 01:16:44,551 --> 01:16:47,103 WHAT ABOUT YOU? 1560 01:16:47,103 --> 01:16:48,344 WHAT ABOUT ME? 1561 01:16:48,344 --> 01:16:51,241 I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER TAKEN CARE OF ME. 1562 01:16:51,241 --> 01:16:53,103 -YOU'RE RESENTFUL. -YEAH. I JUST -- 1563 01:16:53,103 --> 01:16:56,413 I BLAME HER, AND... -FOR? 1564 01:16:56,413 --> 01:16:59,896 FOR MAKING ME BE A MOM... 1565 01:16:59,896 --> 01:17:01,586 WHEN YOU WERE SO LITTLE. 1566 01:17:01,586 --> 01:17:04,448 ...AND FOR MAKING ME TAKE CARE OF HER FOR SO LONG, AND... 1567 01:17:06,034 --> 01:17:08,862 ...I CAN'T GET OVER IT 'CAUSE I STILL DO IT. 1568 01:17:08,862 --> 01:17:10,551 WHAT WOULD YOU FEEL, OR WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO YOU 1569 01:17:10,551 --> 01:17:13,103 IF YOU STOPPED? -I'D FEEL GUILTY. 1570 01:17:13,103 --> 01:17:16,655 AND SO REALLY, YOU KIND OF FEEL LIKE, "I HAVE TO." 1571 01:17:16,655 --> 01:17:17,896 MM-HMM. 1572 01:17:17,896 --> 01:17:21,172 YOU NEED TO SHOW HER THAT YOU CAN LIVE, LIKE, 1573 01:17:21,172 --> 01:17:24,482 IN YOUR HOME ON YOUR OWN, RIGHT? -RIGHT. 1574 01:17:24,482 --> 01:17:26,965 AND DO YOU FEEL THAT YOU'RE CAPABLE OF DOING THAT? 1575 01:17:26,965 --> 01:17:30,034 I AM. THERE'S NO REASON WHY I CAN'T DO IT NOW. 1576 01:17:30,034 --> 01:17:31,965 SO WE JUST NEED TO CREATE SOME CONSISTENCY 1577 01:17:31,965 --> 01:17:34,068 WITH THE BEHAVIOR, RIGHT? 1578 01:17:34,068 --> 01:17:35,068 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1579 01:17:35,068 --> 01:17:37,034 -WELL, THANK YOU. -OKAY. 1580 01:17:37,034 --> 01:17:38,793 OKAY, GUYS. ALL RIGHT. -WELL, THANK YOU. 1581 01:17:38,793 --> 01:17:40,931 WELL, THANK YOU FOR COMING IN TODAY. 1582 01:17:40,931 --> 01:17:42,379 ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU SO MUCH. 1583 01:17:42,379 --> 01:17:44,206 -GOOD LUCK ON EVERYTHING. -THANK YOU. 1584 01:17:44,206 --> 01:17:45,379 -THANK YOU. -ALL RIGHT. 1585 01:17:45,379 --> 01:17:48,517 YOU TAKE CARE. -YOU, TOO. 1586 01:17:48,517 --> 01:17:50,034 AND REMEMBER YOU ARE STRONG. 1587 01:17:50,034 --> 01:17:51,724 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 1588 01:17:51,724 --> 01:17:58,068 ♪♪ 1589 01:17:58,068 --> 01:18:01,620 Jennifer: MARISSA AND I TALKED OPENLY AND HONESTLY TODAY, 1590 01:18:01,620 --> 01:18:03,655 AND I SEE HOW TRULY IMPORTANT IT IS FOR US 1591 01:18:03,655 --> 01:18:07,482 TO START LIVING INDEPENDENTLY OF EACH OTHER. 1592 01:18:07,482 --> 01:18:10,379 I'VE WASTED TOO MUCH OF MY LIFE AND TOO MUCH OF HERS. 1593 01:18:10,379 --> 01:18:13,241 ♪♪ 1594 01:18:13,241 --> 01:18:17,172 WE'VE GOT A SECOND CHANCE ON OUR HEALTH FROM DR. NOW, 1595 01:18:17,172 --> 01:18:19,517 SO HOPEFULLY NOW, WE CAN GET A SECOND CHANGE 1596 01:18:19,517 --> 01:18:21,068 IN OUR RELATIONSHIP, TOO. 1597 01:18:21,068 --> 01:18:24,034 ♪♪ 1598 01:18:24,034 --> 01:18:24,379 [ ENGINE TURNS OVER ] 1599 01:18:30,206 --> 01:18:39,896 ♪♪ 1600 01:18:39,896 --> 01:18:41,827 THOSE ARE SMALL. 1601 01:18:41,827 --> 01:18:45,172 Jennifer: SINCE I GOT THE SURGERY, A LOT HAS CHANGED. 1602 01:18:45,172 --> 01:18:46,517 YOU WANT HELP? 1603 01:18:46,517 --> 01:18:49,551 YOU WANT TO HELP? YEAH. 1604 01:18:49,551 --> 01:18:51,379 I BROKE UP WITH DAWAYNE. 1605 01:18:51,379 --> 01:18:53,827 HE'S BEEN GAMBLING AND DOING DRUGS, 1606 01:18:53,827 --> 01:18:56,931 AND I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE, 1607 01:18:56,931 --> 01:18:59,896 SO I'M MOVING FORWARD. 1608 01:18:59,896 --> 01:19:03,862 I LOVE THE FREEDOM THAT LOSING WEIGHT IS GIVING ME, 1609 01:19:03,862 --> 01:19:07,827 BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, I WANT MARISSA TO HAVE HER FREEDOM. 1610 01:19:07,827 --> 01:19:09,758 WHAT I'VE BEEN PROCESSING SINCE THERAPY 1611 01:19:09,758 --> 01:19:12,482 IS JUST TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT I DO THE THINGS 1612 01:19:12,482 --> 01:19:14,931 I NEED TO WITH HOUSEHOLD CHORES AND SO FORTH, 1613 01:19:14,931 --> 01:19:16,827 AND I'M BEING INDEPENDENT. 1614 01:19:16,827 --> 01:19:18,551 I'M DOING THINGS FOR MYSELF 1615 01:19:18,551 --> 01:19:21,931 SO THAT WAY MARISSA HAS HER OWN FREEDOM. 1616 01:19:21,931 --> 01:19:23,827 IT GIVES ME HOPE THAT OUR RELATIONSHIP 1617 01:19:23,827 --> 01:19:27,448 CAN BE AS STRONG AS IT USED TO BE AND EVEN STRONGER. 1618 01:19:27,448 --> 01:19:28,931 Marissa: MY MOM'S MOBILITY HAS BEEN GREAT. 1619 01:19:28,931 --> 01:19:31,103 SHE HELPS ME A LOT. IT'S BEEN NICE. 1620 01:19:31,103 --> 01:19:33,586 SHE DOES A LOT MORE, SO IT'S GOOD. 1621 01:19:33,586 --> 01:19:36,344 ♪♪ 1622 01:19:36,344 --> 01:19:39,103 Jennifer: I'M DOING THINGS FOR MYSELF WHERE BEFORE, 1623 01:19:39,103 --> 01:19:41,758 I WOULD JUST CALL MARISSA OUT OF HER ROOM AND SAY, 1624 01:19:41,758 --> 01:19:43,724 "HEY, CAN YOU COME DO THIS, THIS, AND THIS?" 1625 01:19:43,724 --> 01:19:45,620 SHE KNOWS THAT I CAN DO THINGS ON MY OWN, 1626 01:19:45,620 --> 01:19:48,448 THAT I DON'T HAVE TO RELY ON HER, 1627 01:19:48,448 --> 01:19:50,724 AND I JUST WANT TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD. 1628 01:19:50,724 --> 01:20:00,310 ♪♪ 1629 01:20:00,310 --> 01:20:03,241 I FEEL GOOD ABOUT THIS WEIGH-IN TODAY, 1630 01:20:03,241 --> 01:20:04,862 AND I HOPE I MADE ENOUGH PROGRESS 1631 01:20:04,862 --> 01:20:06,827 TO GET TO THE MID-400s. 1632 01:20:06,827 --> 01:20:09,413 ♪♪ 1633 01:20:09,413 --> 01:20:11,137 -GOOD JOB. -THANKS. 1634 01:20:13,482 --> 01:20:15,931 I'M SO PROUD OF THAT NUMBER. 1635 01:20:15,931 --> 01:20:18,310 Nurse: MARISSA, YOU'RE UP. 1636 01:20:18,310 --> 01:20:22,586 Marissa: I'M READY TO SEE A GOOD WEIGHT ON THAT SCALE FOR BOTH OF US. 1637 01:20:22,586 --> 01:20:26,137 I'M HOPING THAT I BROKE 400 TODAY AND MADE IT INTO THE 300s. 1638 01:20:28,586 --> 01:20:31,689 -364. -THAT'S AMAZING. 1639 01:20:31,689 --> 01:20:35,068 I'M SO PROUD OF YOU. -THANKS. 1640 01:20:35,068 --> 01:20:38,655 I'M SO PROUD OF BOTH OF US. 1641 01:20:38,655 --> 01:20:41,620 Jennifer: WE'VE DEFINITELY HAD SOME UPS AND DOWNS THIS PAST YEAR... 1642 01:20:43,655 --> 01:20:45,724 ...AND WE DIDN'T ALWAYS DO WHAT WE NEEDED TO DO... 1643 01:20:45,724 --> 01:20:49,241 ♪♪ 1644 01:20:49,241 --> 01:20:51,379 BUT WE'RE FINALLY ON THE RIGHT PATH. 1645 01:20:53,172 --> 01:20:55,034 HELLO.Both: HI, DR. NOW. 1646 01:20:55,034 --> 01:20:56,827 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1647 01:20:56,827 --> 01:20:59,413 I'M GOOD. ALL RIGHT. 1648 01:20:59,413 --> 01:21:01,206 GOOD TO SEE YOU TWO. 1649 01:21:01,206 --> 01:21:04,482 JENNIFER, YOU'RE DOWN TO 447 TODAY, 1650 01:21:04,482 --> 01:21:08,206 SO THAT IS A TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS OF ALMOST 200 POUNDS. 1651 01:21:08,206 --> 01:21:09,482 SO, HOW YOU FEEL WITH THAT? 1652 01:21:09,482 --> 01:21:11,758 -IT FEELS PRETTY GOOD. -GOOD. 1653 01:21:11,758 --> 01:21:13,137 SO YOU'RE DOING WELL, 1654 01:21:13,137 --> 01:21:15,724 AND I'M GLAD TO SEE ALL THAT PROGRESS. 1655 01:21:15,724 --> 01:21:19,137 AND MARISSA, YOU'RE DOWN TO 364 TODAY, 1656 01:21:19,137 --> 01:21:20,310 AND THAT'S GREAT. 1657 01:21:20,310 --> 01:21:24,000 THAT IS TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS OF ABOUT 210 POUNDS, 1658 01:21:24,000 --> 01:21:26,862 SO YOU TWO ARE DOING GREAT, 1659 01:21:26,862 --> 01:21:30,551 AND YOU CONTINUE TO WORK ON CHANGING YOUR WHOLE DYNAMIC 1660 01:21:30,551 --> 01:21:32,413 AND TO SUPPORT ONE ANOTHER. 1661 01:21:32,413 --> 01:21:34,793 SO, I'M PROUD OF YOU BOTH FOR THAT. 1662 01:21:34,793 --> 01:21:37,586 AND IF YOU TWO KEEP WORKING ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP 1663 01:21:37,586 --> 01:21:39,620 AND STICK TO THE DIET, 1664 01:21:39,620 --> 01:21:42,000 THEN I'M CONFIDENT THAT WE CAN GET YOU 1665 01:21:42,000 --> 01:21:44,068 TO YOUR TARGET WEIGHT SOON, 1666 01:21:44,068 --> 01:21:48,310 AND THE NEXT BIG STEP WILL BE SKIN REMOVAL IN A FEW MONTHS. 1667 01:21:48,310 --> 01:21:49,344 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1668 01:21:49,344 --> 01:21:51,758 BUT, MARISSA, AS YOUNG AS YOU ARE, 1669 01:21:51,758 --> 01:21:54,758 SOME EXTRA SKIN MAY ACTUALLY SHRINK 1670 01:21:54,758 --> 01:21:57,000 AND REDUCE TO ORIGINAL SIZE, 1671 01:21:57,000 --> 01:21:59,724 SO WE'LL KEEP AN EYE ON IT AND SEE, 1672 01:21:59,724 --> 01:22:03,413 BUT YOU COULD BE AT YOUR TARGET WEIGHT IN EIGHT MONTHS. 1673 01:22:03,413 --> 01:22:07,655 SO, KEEP AT IT BECAUSE YOU GOT YOUTH ON YOUR SIDE. 1674 01:22:07,655 --> 01:22:10,103 IT IS ALMOST UNFAIR BECAUSE YOUR MOTHER 1675 01:22:10,103 --> 01:22:13,620 HAS TO WORK TWICE AS HARD FOR THE SAME RESULTS. 1676 01:22:13,620 --> 01:22:15,068 THAT'S GOOD. 1677 01:22:15,068 --> 01:22:18,379 OKAY, BUT THAT'S NOT HOLDING YOU BACK, IS IT? 1678 01:22:18,379 --> 01:22:19,896 NO. [ LAUGHS ] 1679 01:22:19,896 --> 01:22:21,034 -ALL RIGHT, Y'ALL. TAKE CARE. -THANK YOU. 1680 01:22:21,034 --> 01:22:22,482 I'LL SEE Y'ALL NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 1681 01:22:22,482 --> 01:22:25,103 OKAY. 1682 01:22:25,103 --> 01:22:27,172 Dr. Nowzaradan: I AM VERY PLEASED WITH THE PROGRESS 1683 01:22:27,172 --> 01:22:29,379 THAT JENNIFER AND MARISSA ARE MAKING 1684 01:22:29,379 --> 01:22:32,689 AND FOR HOW THEY HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING EACH OTHER. 1685 01:22:32,689 --> 01:22:34,724 THEY'VE COME A LONG WAY TOGETHER, 1686 01:22:34,724 --> 01:22:37,620 AND EVEN THOUGH THEY STILL HAVE A WAYS TO GO, 1687 01:22:37,620 --> 01:22:40,827 THEY'RE HEADED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND DOING WELL, 1688 01:22:40,827 --> 01:22:43,482 AND IF THEY KEEP GOING TO THERAPY TOGETHER 1689 01:22:43,482 --> 01:22:45,965 AND WORKING ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP, 1690 01:22:45,965 --> 01:22:47,517 WE SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM 1691 01:22:47,517 --> 01:22:51,413 GETTING THEM TO THEIR TARGET WEIGHT. 1692 01:22:51,413 --> 01:22:56,000 Jennifer: THIS WHOLE PROCESS IS SO HARD, BUT IT'S WORTH IT. 1693 01:22:56,000 --> 01:22:59,793 I'M DOING THINGS THAT I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE. 1694 01:22:59,793 --> 01:23:02,275 AND NOW, I DO SEE A FUTURE. 1695 01:23:02,275 --> 01:23:04,137 I STILL AM NOT SURE WHAT IT IS, 1696 01:23:04,137 --> 01:23:07,034 BUT I KNOW THAT I'M GONNA GET OUT THERE 1697 01:23:07,034 --> 01:23:09,551 AND LIVE LIFE, WHATEVER IT IS. 1698 01:23:09,551 --> 01:23:18,206 ♪♪ 1699 01:23:18,206 --> 01:23:26,862 ♪♪ 1700 01:23:26,862 --> 01:23:29,586 Marissa: TODAY MY MOM AND I ARE GOING SHOPPING. 1701 01:23:29,586 --> 01:23:32,413 I'VE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT THAT I NEED NEW CLOTHES, 1702 01:23:32,413 --> 01:23:35,862 SO I'M EXCITED TO TRY ON SOME NEW OUTFITS. 1703 01:23:35,862 --> 01:23:38,724 MY MOM AND I HAVE BEEN SPENDING MORE TIME APART, 1704 01:23:38,724 --> 01:23:40,620 WHICH HAS BEEN GOOD FOR US, 1705 01:23:40,620 --> 01:23:43,862 BUT IT'S ALSO FUN GOING OUT AND DOING SOMETHING. 1706 01:23:43,862 --> 01:23:45,896 -HI, LADIES. HOW ARE Y'ALL? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1707 01:23:45,896 --> 01:23:47,758 Paige: GOOD. WHAT ARE WE BROWSING FOR? 1708 01:23:47,758 --> 01:23:51,620 PROBABLY SOME JEANS. MAYBE, LIKE, NOT SO PLAIN. 1709 01:23:51,620 --> 01:23:54,344 -WHAT SIZE? -LARGE. 1710 01:23:54,344 --> 01:23:57,172 -26, MAYBE? -OKAY. 1711 01:23:57,172 --> 01:24:00,103 Marissa: I'VE LOST WEIGHT, SO I DON'T KNOW. 1712 01:24:00,103 --> 01:24:02,344 I USED TO HATE SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES, 1713 01:24:02,344 --> 01:24:05,689 BUT I'M FEELING A LOT BETTER ABOUT MYSELF LATELY. 1714 01:24:05,689 --> 01:24:06,965 I'M GETTING A NEW LIFE, 1715 01:24:06,965 --> 01:24:10,103 SO I SHOULD HAVE SOME NEW CLOTHES, TOO. 1716 01:24:10,103 --> 01:24:12,827 Jennifer: IT'S SO GREAT TO BE OUT HERE WITH MARISSA TODAY. 1717 01:24:12,827 --> 01:24:15,137 HERE, MOM. YOU CAN HAVE THAT. 1718 01:24:15,137 --> 01:24:16,827 -THANKS. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 1719 01:24:16,827 --> 01:24:18,137 [ SIGHS ] 1720 01:24:18,137 --> 01:24:19,724 THIS IS THE KIND OF MOTHER-DAUGHTER STUFF 1721 01:24:19,724 --> 01:24:21,655 I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. 1722 01:24:21,655 --> 01:24:23,206 THIS IS THE KIND OF THING MOTHER AND DAUGHTER 1723 01:24:23,206 --> 01:24:25,724 SHOULD BE DOING TOGETHER, 1724 01:24:25,724 --> 01:24:29,172 AND IT'S WHAT WE COULD NEVER DO BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 1725 01:24:29,172 --> 01:24:32,241 BUT ALL THAT'S CHANGED NOW. 1726 01:24:32,241 --> 01:24:35,275 I WOULDN'T BE HERE TODAY IF IT WASN'T FOR HER. 1727 01:24:35,275 --> 01:24:38,413 SO MUCH HAS CHANGED IN THE LAST YEAR. 1728 01:24:38,413 --> 01:24:39,758 HOLY MOLY. 1729 01:24:39,758 --> 01:24:42,724 ♪♪ 1730 01:24:42,724 --> 01:24:45,137 LAST TIME I WORE A 24? 1731 01:24:45,137 --> 01:24:48,758 I DON'T KNOW, BUT I'M DYING TO SEE. 1732 01:24:48,758 --> 01:24:52,551 I WANT MARISSA TO HAVE HER FREEDOM. 1733 01:24:52,551 --> 01:24:56,103 IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME, BABY. 1734 01:24:56,103 --> 01:24:57,517 AND I WANT TO HELP MY DAUGHTER 1735 01:24:57,517 --> 01:24:59,068 GET THE LIFE THAT SHE DESERVES... 1736 01:24:59,068 --> 01:25:01,103 I THINK I'M GONNA CRY. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU. 1737 01:25:01,103 --> 01:25:03,482 OH, GOD. 1738 01:25:03,482 --> 01:25:05,896 ...BECAUSE SHE HELPED ME GET THE LIFE THAT I WANT. 1739 01:25:05,896 --> 01:25:09,137 ♪♪ 1740 01:25:09,137 --> 01:25:10,689 I'M EXTREMELY PROUD OF MARISSA. 1741 01:25:10,689 --> 01:25:12,758 SHE'S JUST DOING IT. 1742 01:25:12,758 --> 01:25:14,034 Jennifer: I LIKE THAT MY BODY IS STILL CHANGING 1743 01:25:14,034 --> 01:25:15,793 'CAUSE I KNOW IT'S GONNA GET BETTER, 1744 01:25:15,793 --> 01:25:18,931 AND IT'S GONNA GET SMALLER, AND I CAN KEEP GOING. 1745 01:25:18,931 --> 01:25:21,275 Jennifer: I'M DEFINITELY LOOKING FORWARD TO MORE DAYS LIKE THIS. 1746 01:25:21,275 --> 01:25:22,758 I CAN'T WAIT 'TIL WE CAN BOTH COME IN 1747 01:25:22,758 --> 01:25:25,448 AND TRY CLOTHES TOGETHER. 1748 01:25:25,448 --> 01:25:27,000 Marissa: THERE'S NO ONE ELSE I WOULD'VE WANTED 1749 01:25:27,000 --> 01:25:28,827 TO MAKE THIS JOURNEY WITH. 1750 01:25:28,827 --> 01:25:30,862 WE STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO, 1751 01:25:30,862 --> 01:25:32,034 BUT WE ARE GONNA GET THERE TOGETHER.